rants.

when reality hits you hard.

2008-01-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

went t sch for proj discussion this morning. my elective prof is damn on, second week of sch and he wants us t do presentation already. damn scared i cant catch up w his on-ness. and i added another baf elective today, i just hope i wont die under the workload.

i think i have been in my comfort zone for too long. or maybe i just chose to ignore certain things so that i dont have to change myself. well, as they say, ignorance is bliss. but it certainly isnt blissful when you find out what you have been ignorant about all these while.

yea and i discovered smth lately. there is a hell lot of zai ppl hiding in various places in sch. some of them are well-known, some of them are not so well known among the normal students but all the smartest ppl know they exist. there are so many of such ppl that i'm surrounded by. the worst thing is i'm not one of them! i'm like the most 没出息 one. i dont have an impressive cca record, neither do i have an excellent academic record. i also dont have a broad knowledge of current affairs, and i'm not leader material. i think i'm a damn sad case, cos usually ppl who have no brains are beautiful and vice versa. but i obviously dont have both. i have nothing t my name and i'm so average until i cant be anymore average. and needless t say, my job upon graduation is also an average one with average pay. how special can my job be when nearly 3/4 of the cohort is going to be doing the same thing as me?

sigh, but who can i blame when i did not work my ass off harder, when i chose t use my free time on shopping rather than joining more meaningful ccas and activities like CASE competition, when i chose t shun newspapers for magazines like CLEO and what not and when my weird personality just doesnt seem t fit into any bank's culture.

but i still cannot overcome the emotions i felt when i knew abt someone's grades. that someone leads an even more slack university life than me, does not study much till the last few weeks before exams, has that gift t crap during exams and has generally always not done better than me in the past. but that someone's most recent grades were not only better than mine, but nearly straight As kind like a first class honours student's usual grades! how would you feel if you know someone who is not as smart/capable as you but he/she does so much better suddenly in the 2nd last sem of uni? or maybe its not that someone is getting smarter, just that that someone knows how to make use of their strength to do better. so maybe i'm not smart enough to choose electives which are areas i'm stronger in so that i can do better and pull up my gpa.

but either way somehow i just feel 不服. i know its not right cos that someone is a friend, and i shld be feeling happy that someone is doing smth abt studies but i cannot help it. and a lot of my friends told me not t think abt the past semester and focus on doing well this semester instead. i'm trying, but the recollection of my disgraceful performance last sem just bruises my ego badly. :( and it doesnt do any good t my confidence.

sigh, i've ranted long enough and i dont expect anyone to finish reading this post. but if you've actually read this far, thanks for reading and sharing my woes. i'm going to read up on my elective now, since i need to go for another meeting tmr t finalise on the presentation

hello world!

2008-01-09T23:53:00.001+08:00

i'm back t blogging again!! ahhaa. since everyone is asking me t blog again. okay la thats just an excuse. actually my fingers are itching t blog again also.. tee hee! ok the past 9 days of 2008 werent very eventful for me, except that school started 3 days ago and i'm not in the mood for sch! obviously. i'm still happily looking at online shopping websites, sleeping long hours, watching tv etc etc.

went to taiwan during dec 2007. yet t upload the pictures but i'm doing it soon. cos my favourite imagestation decided t close down, so i thought i'd shift all of the pictures to flickr and upload my taiwan pics at the same time.

ive been reading ppl's blogs the past few days. seems like alot of ppl are doing v well! a friend applied for law school in US, went over t vegas for a holiday and got a totally new hairdo. lt came back from china few weeks back and its really great t see her blogging again. :P and i read from lt's blog that sihui is making big bucks from giving tuition. how cool is that?!?!! so many of my friends are like making big bucks doing smth out of sch, be it tuition or managing an online shop. and me? not only am i not making money, i'm spending my money instead of saving them. tsk tsk.

so my new year's resolution is to save money, spend less, slp early, LOSE WEIGHT and shed fats (this is of utmost importance)! may i be able to continue doing these till 31 dec 2008!

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to all: HELLO GUYS I'M BACK!!! :D

hiatus.

2007-09-11T21:03:00.001+08:00

i'm gonna take a break from blogging for awhile. theres just too much t do this sem and i feel bad for not updating regularly. :( and with the packing of stuff and shifting house, dont have much time left alr..

but anyway! i'm so glad my midterm's coming soon. then i can get a really good rest. and finally go shopping! :P yayyy

take care everyone~~

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Jain ; yes babe, we're moving. so sadddddddddd :(

carrie ; HEYYYY dearie i miss you lots too!! you changed blog add again huh? anw go get facebook! ahha i just found huiqi the other day thru it. btw are you still tanning? the weather's pretty bad these days.. and i'm reallyy gonna miss my homeee sob sob.. took a few pictures of my house for memory's sake ;P

i'm moving.

2007-08-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving behind 14 years of memories with my home in Upper Thomson come mid-sept. my parents sold the house and found a new place in Novena. we're renting it though, cos they wanted t wait for property prices t drop before buying another house.

its so sad.. i'm so emotionally attached to my present house and i cant imagine not coming back t this house. i can no longer go through the gates of my home, no longer stand at my porch and look up at the skies, no longer sit outside my door and enjoy the breeze. this house wont be mine anymore, it'll be someone else's. i'm going to miss everything around here: the road back, the small little park in front of my house, the bus stops and even miss the back alley shortcut that i always take.

even if i can still go t thomson plaza, have supper along the stretch of food outlets and continue going t my church opposite, the feeling wont be the same anymore. i'm no longer a resident at upper thomson, just a 'visitor'.

this is so depressing. i think i'd come back once in awhile next time, just t see how the new owners are treating my house. :((

upside down.

2007-08-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

whoops its been a long time since i last blogged! dont know why, just didnt really have the mood t blog. ive been playing around with facebook pretty often.. maybe thats why. haa

anyway nothing much happened la. sentosa w rolyn last tues but we didnt get tanned cos of the damned weather. speaking of which, it was so rainy last week that i thought this week would be the same too so i had other plans. but guess what! the sun has been damn bright this entire week! GAHH. i'm so going t swim tomorrow.

and i went t the zoo today! and bumped into 2 of my hc gfs. haha apparently they sneaked in cos their friend works in the zoo. so they saved on entrance fees and tram fare when my ant and i had t pay 43 bucks in all! the zoo was quite fun, but some of the animals disappeared la. like the sunbear, they said they moved them t another habitat and needs some time t adapt so they cant let visitors view them yet. ;( and i cant find the komodo dragon!! their habitat is like dry and empty! so sad! but the otters and squirrels and mongoose were very cuteee. small furry animals. i like!

ahh thats abt the highlights of the past 2 weeks. been having quite abit of family probs these days.. or maybe they're always present but just surfaced recently. i'm like racking my brains t find a win-win solution, but it seems quite impossible cos one party wont budge. thought of something else, something which i really dont wish t do and its my last resort. i hope its the right thing t do. :(

anddddd the hols are coming t an end. school's starting next tues for me, and i have a full day event t attend t on monday. haiyo why does time have t pass so fast??!

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lye ; haha tt means your skin color is like stuck in the middle now la?? i keep saying i wanna go suntan but sometimes i'm damn lazy. like i wake up and see that the sun's good but i just cant get my ass down t the swimming pool. lol.. nvm when you wanna go suntan you can ask me, i'll go w you~

pure bliss.

2007-07-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

oh it sure feels good when you get t slp late and wake up late! the joy of lazing around at home ^^v

and so. i signed up for a basic sailing course today. finally i get t learn sailing. i rmb i wanted t join sailing as a cca when i went jc. alas, hwa chong didnt have sailing. -frowns. which is why i was in touch rugby. but touch is really fun too! so no regrets i guess.

and ive been on a reading frenzy recently. ever since last tues ive been going in and out of the library so often! i managed t borrow some shopaholic books (oh lucky me!) and i realise that one shld really visit the library during non-peak periods. whatever books i was looking for were always available! usually i have a hard time looking for my books during june/dec hols. and cos of the loan quota i couldnt borrow all of them, only 4 at a time. so for the rest of my hols i shld read as much as i can.. ;x

tmr i'm going sentosa! yay i hope the sun's good! and i just found out another friend coming t nbs too! woohooo this is cool and exciting!

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jain ; hehe send me the song??

lye ; haha okay!! but what movie?? ive watched transformers and harry potter already~ and yeaaa dresses rock! so happyyy ^^

holiday mood.

2007-07-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

ok i meant t blog since two weeks ago, but i'm always interrupted by other stuff! i'm so sorry i havent been updating. my blog is collecting dust and cobwebs i know. sometimes i'm just lazy cos there hasnt been much going on lah. other than tax comps and lunch and me falling asleep at my work desk. oops ;x

but there will be starting from tmr!! for starters, i'll be queuing at donut factory with my other interns t buy donuts for the perm staff at ey! why? cos its our LAST DAY of internship on friday!! YAY! and of cos i'll be getting some myself. haha. hmm apparently when i told this t ziyu the other day he was very very amused by this new singaporean craze over donuts.

and on fri i'll be having dinner w the 4 truth ppl! hopefully keshia's coming! damn happy t see the class again. and then on sat morning i'm meeting up w my touch mates t play touch! super excited abt it. lol.

ive got so much fun stuff in my plans! though school vacation started 2 months ago, this is the REAL beginning of my holidays :D and people! i'm gonna be free for a mth before school starts, so start asking me out now now nowwww

but priority goes t my baby ;P tee hee

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Jain ; -winks. yea babe! and its true for quite alot of my friends too ahha :D

fate.

2007-06-21T21:56:00.000+08:00

its amazing how two people can meet so randomly and yet end up as good friends, best friends, or even soulmates. ive plenty of friends, but most of the close ones are people who i met randomly in the past.

like how i met carrie at the beach, or how i met rolyn in church, and even more random was how i met my bf in the gym. i was just thinking abt these people, and i really treasure the friendships. cos i realise that apart from my st nicks buddies, they're the ones i share my troubles and joy with. they're also the ones whom i can count on in times of need. i feel blessed t have them around! seriously, i hope the friendships would grow stronger and deeper, as we're slowly moving into the working world, one by one...

on a lighter note, it was jh's 21st last saturday! a happy happy event! it was great seeing all the st nicks girls again!! took lots of pictures but i havent uploaded them yet. will do so soon. they're all very funny lah esp nicole and serena. it'll never be boring w them ard.. aha. hey all of youuu lets meet up again! st nicks canteen fooodd pls ;P

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lt ; haha okay nvm.. take your time ok. as long as you pass t me before you fly t china. ;P

shox ; no lah i just make it sound interesting only. actually its fricking boring. HAHA

IZE ; lol dude you're damn funny. sleepy then go and slp la!! LOL

cant stop smiling.

2007-06-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

oops i hafnt been updating much! been watching movies every weekend so far.. gonna catch fantastic four this weekend!

well, i got my results on friday. wasnt anything fantastic, though i thought i was quite a feat for me. erhh but as i got t know more ppl's results i felt more and more shitty. then again, because alot of my friends did well, i'm getting lots of treats! for starters, keith treated us t pool that evening. yay! now i'm just waiting for ben's and karen's treat.. heh heh

i finally went running on sat! i need t shed LOTS of fats! sitting at the office the whole day isnt doing any good for my tummy! its only getting bigger and fatter and gaining presence. ughh. 4 rounds only, but its a gd start. i'm gonna need more running man, 4 rounds a week isnt gonna be enough t burn all these stubborn fats! anw it was wanjun's 21st on sunday. invited s71 and only a handful appeared. (as usual ;x) ah but it was fun though. the food was great! i'm really becoming a glutton. actually i think i shld consider a career as a food connoisseur. like moses lim you know. and soon i'll be abt the same size as him. -GASP!

its gonna be jh's turn this sat. yayy gonna be meeting up w some 4truth ppl tt i hafnt seen in a LONG LONG time! it'll be a blast! heehee. and i'll be taking more more MORE photos so ya all can seeee

btw everyone whos reading this shld get a facebook account! facebook's so fun its even better than friendster! haha

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jain ; yes babe i caught that part. my friend told me there was a small bit after the credits so i stayed on. but aiya it only lasted for like a min.

carrie ; ahha noooo i hafnt forgotten you! how can i forget my beach partner!! haha i miss ya too! loves

lt ; aye girl sorry this's abit late. but yea sure you can pass me the risk book! i'll keep it till you're back from china! haha ;P

mood ; yoz why you no holiday tt day meh?

ahoy!

2007-05-31T19:50:00.001+08:00

woo hoo i watched pirates of the caribbean today! at world's end! i love pirates of the caribbean!!! vivocity on a public holiday is madness man. super crowded! luckily i foresaw this so i booked tickets online last night! when i got there at 12.15, even the 4pm showtimes were SELLING FAST. goodness me. so while everyone else were queueing.. my sis and i just happily collected our tickets and went t buy snacks. hah.

anw the movie was quite nice leh, unlike what my friends said. they all thought it was kinda draggy.. but i thought its ok. but its so sad that will turner had t become the captain of the flying dutchman!! arghh! and poor elizabeth has t wait ten years t see will once.. :( starcrossed lovers man. thats gotta be the most tragic tragedy of the story. sob sob :'( keira knightley is so pretty. and orlando bloom is so compatible w her!

and i thought the part which chow yun fatt was in was quite hilarious. he said WELCOME T SINGAPORE. oh god, does singapore really look like that t hollywood?!??! quite funny t hear that.. everyone in the cinema must be thinking, wow so THIS is how the country i live in looks like t others. yea.. so okay, sg had a part in pirates. :P but why did they decide t use sg's name?? and chow yun fatt speaks pretty gd english... lol.

sigh one more day of work. tmr got work then go chalet. TGIF?? hope the weekend's good..

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lt ; haha no la not loser! i dun think i got energy t go thru it also la.. surely v tired one i rather slp at home. then go shopping at another more earthly hour. hahaa

lye ; lol nvm la its over now liao! dont think abt it alr! hehe just enjoy your break now.. and congrats on buying yummy donuts!! i think its v yummy toooo lets go queue again larr ;P hahah

a boring week.

2007-05-26T00:18:00.000+08:00

you know, i think 'queer' is the in word now. suddenly i keep hearing everyone use that instead of 'weird'! like, how QUEER. and my sis says its cos everyone thinks 'weird' is too common.. so in order t stand out from the crowd they use 'queer'. but she says she uses it cos it makes her feel smarter than her friends. cos everytime she says that they'll ask her WHATS THAT? -_-

aaahh a week just flew past likdat. was doing tax comps (as usual) the entire week.. and i've been having a serious lack of slp for the past 3 days! damn sad. i nearly fell asleep studying my tax comps a few times. and the worst thing is you cant slp in the office!! i suddenly wish tt i'm having lectures. so i can nod off without ppl noticing me ;P hehee

gss starts today! apparently sandra has been warming up the past few days.. she went shopping after work almost everyday! in her heels! omg shes amazing. and shes going for the late night shopping tonight. then she wore a miniskirt t the office today?!?! i know its dress-down day la but thats abit pushing the limit right... lol. sigh ive been missing many 'late night shopping' fridays alr. like 3 i think. i MUST go t the next one!! ;P

oh btw. river island has damn gorgeous clothes! i wish i had the money t buy them all!!

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mood ; oh yea sure.. haha if i ever have the time t come online after work. i'm usually too tired t fight w my sis for the comp. hehe

jain ; haha what's yuppie gang?? anw i've been dressing down more each day! cos the ppl in the office wear quite slack leh. so only mon-wed i wear formal shirts, thurs wear casual shirt, fri wear casual shirt + casual skirt. ;P and flat shoes on fridays!!

lye ; okok i cant wait t hang out w you!! and i miss our gatherings!! hehe jiayou for exams ok! study hard its gonna be over soon! got so much t catch up on man.. miss ya loads lye lye

shopping woes.

2007-05-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

went shopping today and i think my 'sensory neurones' for shopping are not working. i seem t wanna buy everything cos they all seem so "worth it". just cos almost everything i look at are on discount and its quiteeeee nice. then you know, you'll get tempted t get it since its on SALE. but i cant do that cos i'll end up having alot of unwanted stuff!! hmms. kinda got distracted along the way.. i was supposed t be looking for office wear but i ended up buying a few items for casual wear. ;x

ive been bumping into lots of friends and ntu ppl these days man. just last wed i was on the train and i saw a friend at the newton platform. and i keep bumping into janice! i see her everyday in ey and i saw her ytd evening in citylink and today i saw her again in topshop! and then i met nicole outside hyatt today cos she was helping amanda's dad with smth..

anyway first week of work was alright. i think its so fun that alot of friends are working in cbd! i just saw jiehui and jingjin at lau pa sat on thurs! everything's cool.. just that my legs are aching everyday after work. i really need to bring my slippers t the office! my legs will break in no time if i dont save them! somemore i eat so much and then sit down at my desk most of the time, i dont think my legs can support my fat upper body! boohoohoo. and my black shoe strap broke last fri so i got a new pair of heels. sighh i miss wearing my birks. they were so comfy and friendly t my feet. :(

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Jain ; hmms what does tt co do? haha boring nvm.. the most impt is they pay you well! :P then can use the money and go on gss sprees! :D miss ya jainjain!

mood ; lol how did you find my blog? hafnt heard from you for quite awhile too, hope everything's been going well for you. haha catch up w ya sometime!

a love to kill.

2007-05-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

arghhh i cant take this anymore!! this k drama is damn damn DAMN depressing!! long long ago i knew that i wasnt suited t be tortured by depressing shows.. and this drama makes it worse by coming out with a tragic ending!! for a good part of the drama there was a heart-wrenching love story and the main characters just tried t avoid each other but loving each other secretly.. omg can anyone imagine the pain of doing that. yea yea i'm a sucker for romance but i really think that the hurt and pain of pretending not t love someone can make them lose their life.. be it literally or just "existing but not being alive"

gahhhh initially i watched that drama cos of Rain.. and right until episode 8 the show was still confusing and there wasnt a bloody structure t it. and since i was alr halfway there i might as well finish it cos the gd part came at ard episode 11. and then the good part went away again and the TRAGIC PART came ever since! even though the show tried t put in a happy scene but apparently the viewers all know that that happiness wouldnt last.. so its still tragic.

oh my god i can feel the aftermath of the tragedy. my heart really aches for the characters.. they both DIED in the end just t be together. sighh. i guess i shld take comfort in knowing that they got t be "together" in the end huh. i wonder how long will that effect of the drama wear off me. I NEED A HAPPY K DRAMA. i'll check out 'My Girl'. or maybe i shld just join my sis when shes watching her anime.

anyway today was the first day of my attachment and i had training. in fact i'm gonna keep having training till friday. mon-wed is training for all interns, thurs-fri is training for tax interns. i was practically falling asleep during the "lectures" cos they were talking abt boring AUDIT ROADMAP and AUDIT EVIDENCE etc etc. like faints man. i so gotta slp early tonight so i wont oversleep tmr and hopefully i can get coffee t keep me awake. yawns.

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Jain ; haha how did you get urself burnt?? i went swimming last thurs, didnt get burnt but didnt get much of a tan too. ahha.. anw i'm working too la ;( i miss jain! where's jain working at?

little surprises.

2007-05-10T10:36:00.000+08:00

went shopping with xuan and danielle ytd. guess who i met on the way??

i met nicole teo! ahha she was w her bf.. omg she looks so different. and its not cos i hafnt seen her for a long time. her dressing is so different! so bling and hiphop-ish like missy elliot! haha and she was wearing a funky cap, you know those that you gotta tilt them when you wear it. she said she just came back from taiwan so shes wearing that cap out. lolol shes so cute. underneath all that attitude dressing is just your sweet ol' nicole. ;P

hmm ok during lunch we saw fiona xie w her mom.. shes extremely skinny. i mean fiona xie. her shoulders are so narrow! so she looks v small t me. i'm not sure if she put on alot of makeup but it looked simple on her face.. but shes damn pretty la! lol. everyone in the food court was like staring and gawking after her. pretty lady in a cute sunny floral dress.

sighs. its thurs alr and i wont have as much time t enjoy my hols once work starts. ;( gotta make the best out of whatever remaining time i have. so since the sun's so great today, i shall go swimming and then pick up my jeans from the tailor! toodles~

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Jain ; haha i just went w lala on monday.. ;P we'll go again soon ok! hehe

lt ; ok i just hope you wont get bored reading abt my PA experience.. dont know what i'll be doing there but i sure hope its not gonna be all photocopying and filing or some other brainless chores.. haha

post-exams.

2007-05-04T19:13:00.000+08:00

hmm ive been leading an unhealthy life for the past few days. watching princess hours on the comp for the whole day, only leaving my seat for meals. feels quite weird not t go out and play after exams. no idea why, but i just dont really feel like it. maybe its because i'm too tired, i just wanna stay at home and rest before i start going on all the shopping sprees etc. or maybe its just because i wanna finish watching all the drama serials. hahaa. but anyway next week i'll be going for a nice sumptuous dinner w ant and going shopping w xuan and danielle! yay! and my sis wants t go kbox too so maybe we'll do that next week! and the week after i'll be meeting lye lt and co! woohooo! :D

i'm quite bored during the day actually, with most of my friends working or going t work soon. my attachment will start soon too, so i guess at that time i wouldnt feel too bored. rolyn's workin in deloitte audit dept too! guess she'll be getting t know danielle and lawrence soon. think deloitte really employs goodlooking ppl. hmmms

its supposed t be the summer period now yet its been raining every other day. sighh its such a waste. i thought i could start going swimming and get a tan but it looks like its gonna be hard. the weather's so unpredictable! anw too much lazing ard at home is making me fat. i shld start running off the fats too.

ahhh i cant wait for GSS! ;P

goong therapy.

2007-04-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

this semester's exams have gotta be the most traumatising and depressing and demoralising one ever!!

just had tax paper today and oh god. i cant believe i FORGOT abt zero-rated tax supplies and i FORGOT t account for capital allowances. the paper is just so screwed la. and then PE just appeared out of nowhere and i happily thought it was show-how. sigh. and 201 last week was horrendous too. BIG SIGH.

anw i was reading liting's blog just now. damn funny she said she dreamt of going shopping and looking at shirts with 'liquidation' and 'winding up' on it in the NUM style. and she thought they were nice. haha that really cracked me up. the aftermath of company law. LOL. hmmm..

which brings me t my next point. i cant wait for exams t end cos by then i can watch princess hours in peace!! my friend lent me the set and i'm so in love w the show! the past few weeks my sis kept playing it and i kept peeking at parts of the show.. so xin ku man. after exams i can have my goong therapy and retail therapy! YAY! :D thats my ultimate happiness.. watching korean drama all day long and shopping. and just hanging out without a care in the world!

ahh goong.. make me happy pls. ;P

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lt ; hey thanks!! enjoy your hols!! haha and thanks for sharing ur funny dream :P heheh

one down.

2007-04-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

hello t all the lovely ppl who read my blog!! :P

hmm today's 202 exam. that weird module is finally over!! yayy! but when i think of the quality of my answers.... SIGH. really hope i'm not at the bottom of the bell curve! :(

but since its already over, i shall just focus on tax and 201 and 213.. which is like everything else la. poor me. gonna take a nap now then watch some tv before starting on astro! hehe.

think i shld mug w zy and co next week. it'll do me good for 201 and tax :P hopefully i can squeeze into the top of the bell curve like them! hahaa hmm i seem t be in a good mood today~~

t everyone else who's having exams too, hang in there!! :D

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lye ; haha yea lor kinda. nvm k we'll save up t go travelling! earn lots of money and we can travel the world just like everyone else!! :D study hard for ur exams ya we'll go crazy shopping after that hahaha

Jain ; haha no la you overestimate me. theres many many MANY others who have more potential than i have.. and i also nv really go and plan for exchange cos i didnt have the interest previously. ahh but now its too late so i only have myself t blame :(

lt ; ahhaaa tell me abt it man! the rich always gets richer!! grr. oh yayyy okok you're welcome t plan timetable w my friends and i anytime!! i'll intro you t my smartie friends who love mugging in TR145 and we can all mug tog! :P hahaa you also gotta mug hard kaes. then you can have a peace of mind after exams t enjoy :D

plain and ordinary.

2007-04-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

drats. my exams start next week!! :( hafnt prepared much for it yet..

i dont like this time of the year. everyone's busy with exams and dont go out much anymore. and since i'm stuck at home i surf shopping sites so often i dream of going t taiwan or the US of A t shop! think wet seal, H&M etc. arghhhh this is bad! wish i could do some online shopping but ive nv done it b4 and i cant try the clothes on so i wont know if they fit me.. aww :(

ive been slping so much lately.. what a pig. :P wish i could slp lesser so i can study more! someone pls keep zhou gong away from me!

hmm met liting on my way home ytd.. and she told me shes going china for GIP! wow! so many ppl are going overseas either for PA or exchange or GIP next sem!! i'm gonna be so lonely boohoohoo! jh's going switz and shes alr been t vancouver for GSS previously! then i heard a friend's going china for PA.. though the paycheck's not a very fat one. ahha. but at least you can travel t shanghai or hk t SHOP!

oh and i heard theres this damn rich year3 NBS girl who got a job with McKinsey even before she grad.. her starting pay is $12,000!! 5 digit pay!! she doesnt need the job la omg.. widening income disparity man. and she's tall and pretty, she was a part-time model. some ppl just have it all. :/

and so.. everyone leads such exciting lives. except me! i shld start saving up so i can travel t broaden my horizon. since i cant go for anymore student exchanges!!

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Jain ; oh dear. gotta hang in there ok! time really flies.. this hol i'll be having my attachment.. next hol i'll be working already! and there goes all my june and dec holidays!! :(

ugly betty.

2007-04-05T09:00:00.000+08:00

every family has its own set of problems. but why does mine seem t have more?

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hmm. nothing really interesting happened recently.. cos i have been such a mountain turtle, getting stuck in NTU for the entire day and then rushing home t do up my work without any TV or internet surfing or music. my ipod's having abit of a problem with the battery. i charge it full each time, but the next day it seems t be only HALF batt full when i turn it on. and after 30min it seems t conk out on me. wtf.

anyway a few things i discovered over the past few days:
1. dropping hair
i know everyone drops their hair. like a few strands a day. but when i was washing my hair last night, it seems like a bunch of hair was amongst my fingers!!! its damn scary la! i'm quite sure i didnt eat THAT MUCH maggie mee. and i dont know if it's the stress or that i'm just losing hair. i know i have thick poofy hair but i dowanna be bald! omg i dowanna!! :(

2. short temper
okay some ppl may say that i always have a short temper. but i feel myself having an even shorter temper these days. maybe its the time of the mth. or maybe it's the stress. bahhh. ITS THE STRESS. ;X

3. getting fat
all of you may be going "arghh shes doing it again!!" but i'm really serious this time. I AM GETTING FAT. i looked at my reflection off a glass today and i was like, my thighs are HUGE. it didnt look like this before!! at least it looked slimmer than NOW. and i'm very sure my arms have fattened. i look at my arms everyday, how can i not know?!?!!? oh and one more. my TUMMY. fyi, i used t call it Tina cos i was tryin t be funny. but anyway, Tina is sure enjoying life now. which means tt i have a 大肚腩 now!! ARGHHH!!

its all because of a lack of exercise. my daily routine is like, sch-eat-study-slp. no time for exercising. nuh uh. i'm so gonna run regularly during the 3 mths hols. and suntan regularly too cos i'm looking like a GHOST now so pale and looking unhealthy. away with the fats! @&%#(!&$*@+

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Jain ; boohoohoo. sch's so terriblee. and i wanna watch movie with jain. :(

del ; hello del! welcome t my blog. though its only full of my complaints. but i still hope you enjoy reading them. hahaha

feel the tension.

2007-03-30T11:21:00.000+08:00

hmm its been a long time since i blogged eh. as usual, i was extremely busy with the projects and homework. i'm so damn tired now.. slept at 5 the day before ytd. must be under keith's influence laa. -_-

everyone in sch is having a stoned face now. like damn strained expressions on their faces also. either they're unhappy with me or they're super duper stressed. arhhh exams are coming so soon yet i dont have time to start preparing for it!! and zy has started already!! ZYY!!!! -faints.

i wanna go watch movie leh. karen's gonna watch mr bean's holiday today. i wanna watch it too! i think mr bean's damn funny. and its hard t imagine him as a professor. i think i'll just keep laughing if hes my teacher.. ;P and i wanna watch music and lyrics too! i heard its a damn good showww alot of ppl gave me good comments abt it! and number 23 too! thrillers! i love thrillers!! :D but i guess all these will have t wait. as in wait till video ezy has them then i'll go borrow. sad lifeee man.

ok i'm actually typing this in a hurry cos i gotta rush for proj meeting soon. i'm like freezing in the stupid IT lab in sch. seriously man i think the aircon in ntu is FREE one. probably PUB exempted them from paying electricity (aircon) bills. bahh.

oh! its bernard's birthday party tmr! and i'm going w rolyn and janiceee! yayy!

like a choo choo train.

2007-03-22T13:11:00.000+08:00

hmm i think i've been a very good girl this week. i did all my pre-seminar readings, i did my seminar questions, and i paid attention during astro lecture! all these.. the first time in WEEKS! ahhahah i'm so darn proud of myself! -BEAMS. okay i rmb i was supposed t blog abt something which i was unhappy abt.. but i cant rmb what's that unhappy thing! sheesh! STM man. this is reallyyy bad. i'll blog abt it again when i rmb... :(

but anyway i wanna complain abt the 9pm show. joanne peh's boyfriend is damn evil! he cheated on her and when she found out, he still dare t lie t the other woman tt joanne peh's his ex-girlfriend and that she is pestering him! and he even slapped her! HE FUCKING SLAPPED HER! omg i hate guys who do that. like bully women. do they think that females are put on earth for guys t illtreat and abuse?? if i ever see a guy doing this t a girl in public.. i'll memorise his face for sure and call the police! i'll even take footage of the entire incident and POST IT UP ONTO THE INTERNET!! *!@&*%#^(!

i complained t ant and he says i'm scary. AM I??? hahaa maybe cos i said extra things t him.. lol i think if i'm put onto some women's association all the guys guys will flee from sg. LOL ;x oh oh!! ant says tt he wants t learn t play volleyball. i dont mind learning too but i suck at volleyball.. firstly i hate my wrists t be red and sore.. and then i cant serve the ball for nuts. i think i'm better off playing frisbee or just lazing ard under the sun. or building sandcastles :D

anyway bernard's birthday's coming! gotta get him a bday present soon! but the grp of us are kinda unsure what t get him.. so guys! give me ideas?? no shirts pls. haa i think i'm a happier person this week. just because i did my readings, i did my homework and for once i dont feel lost during classes! :D though i think a lil shopping will make my happiness more complete. hiaks. just kidding!

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lye ; hahah how come! okay thats good at least i made you laugh.. destress!! hehe must study hard for ur exams ok! i study w you :D loveee ya! oh ya update ur blog more often lehs you got nice pics t upload mah! :P

brandied cherries and chocolate icecream!

2007-03-16T21:02:00.000+08:00

i am feeling really really distracted and out of sorts today. i think it is due t the lack of slp. i slept at 4am last night cos of the stupid IT proj. but i am SO GLAD that its nearly over now. at least the majority of the work is done. woohoo! so here i am, updating my blog! haa

do you know who is Christopher Gardner? if you dont, go google him and read abt his life on wikipedia. he is one guy that i really salute. i dont think you would really feel the extent of the horrible circumstances he was in just by reading wikipedia.. but he is really one strong man. he did not have a degree; his highest qualification was only high school. yet he was the only trainee in the program that was offered by Dean Witter Reynolds to attain permanent employment with the company. imagine out of all the trainees, most of them probably university graduates or undergraduates!! and those ppl would have had much more education than him! all because he was hungry for this position, and his determination and perseverance that saw him through all his problems. apparently he was broke and homeless, and had t provide for his 5yr old son.. and had t worry abt finding shelters for his son t slp in before he could study for his licensing exam..

seriously, this black guy, was living in america, facing all these obstacles.. and i think he had t overcome some racism probs in addition t all the other problems. so he must be really really optimistic to have survived through all of it. i wouldnt have been able to take all this pressure. i would have caved in and cried and probably lose all my drive and give up on life. i probably would have even resigned t my fate and just rely on the government's welfare package to sustain my life. and i am sure there are not many others who could break free from their predicament the way Chris Gardner did. it really takes alot alot of faith and drive t do that. and look where he is now! 19 yrs ago he set up a brokerage firm of his own, called Gardner Rich & Co. today he is the CEO and founder of Christopher Gardner International Holdings! he is like how zai!!

obviously i did not discover this guy by chance. it was through a movie that i got t know abt this guy. actually i think this movie was supposed t be inspirational and motivational. sigh but i just got depressed after watching it. cos i think hes a good guy and its so sad that he had t go through all of those shit. i mean, he could have taken the easy way out and rob ppl t support his son, or even just slack off and let the government take care of him. but he didnt! he worked his way out of the sufferings! and i think that's God's way of compensating him for the tough years he had t endure... but i'm still depressed!!

okayy. go and watch the movie if you want. i hope it inspires you.. but for those who aspire t be an investment banker or a stockbroker (i thought they were the same but..), i think this movie sort of shows how much effort you have t put in for it.. and some of the efforts may not even bear fruit. so.. if you think your future lies in investment banking, then you just gotta have faith and push on! :D

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Jain ; YAYY i'm so glad you agree w me!! yes yes! i need t go on a shopping spree desperately! before my exam starts!! hahahah love ya jain jain <3

this sick life.

2007-03-11T13:19:00.000+08:00

i am so in need of retail therapy. for the past few weeks ive been immersing myself in projects and the endless readings and preparation for quizzes and not t mention, my ccas! impresario finally ended on 3 march, and ntu open house took place on 10 march. which means i'm only left w union day preparations! yay!! no more trainings and lesser meetings already!

but for the following week(s), i still have t immerse myself in IT and 201 projects, as well as preparing for the 202 quiz. sigh. IT project is really quite worrisome. cos i dont really know anything abt it??? and 201 proj is.. i hope it turns out well. since the prospects look quite gd. BUT STILL! I NEED TO GO SHOPPING! I NEED T DESTRESS!!! even though shopping will take up some of the time that i'm supposed t use for studying. but i need t make tt sacrifice so that i can go a longer way. because i feel so irritated and drained and simply depressed.

ok i admit that the shopping part was quite bimbotic. but the main point is there right? i just want some time t do whatever i want t do. what life is this, studying my ass off and killing countless brain cells. theres more t life than this, and i dont want t look back and realise that ive spent a quarter of a century studying for the sake of studying. and the great thing is that its not even useful. like who the hell still remembers the teachings of OB after they've graduated?? arghh!!

but what can i do? i'm stuck in singapore, a country famous for its fucking kiasu-ism, other than being a clean-and-green and FINE city.

and i always think that theres a vicious cycle going on in NBS. everyone is working harder because everyone else is working hard. or so they think. seriously, there is a bell curve for a reason. i think if everyone just cut themselves the same amount of slack, the A students will still get their As and the B students will still get their Bs. but noooo that would never happen cos some idiot will always spoil market and everyone gets back into the vicious cycle. fuck these idiots.

i just cant wait for the exams t end. so i can get out of school and get FAR FAR AWAY from the cursed and fucked up boonlay.

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lt ; ahha ehh i really look old!! and i cant help taking pictures of plants cos theres really nothing much t take already! lol. anw so far i dont have much complaints abt my proj mates until THIS SEM. one particular grp is seriously of a different frequency from me!! theres this person cant communicate ideas properly! we spent like 10 min arguing abt an idea, only t find out that we're talkin abt the same thing?? like SHEESH. she really needs t go for some communication skills. either she cant convey her ideas properly or she just cant understand normal human language cos i'm sure my other grp members knew what i was talking abt. and i think nbs got alot of ppl who like t shoot ppl's presentation. they LOVE t pick the nitty-gritty things t shoot, which i have no idea why cos it isnt an impt part of the presentation. aiya nbs just has alot of weird ppl. =/

lye ; hahaha oh i took one but my sis didnt wanna look into the cam! i keep asking her t smileee but she just hide her face from the cam!! :( then i took a pic of my mom but she was eating.. doesnt look v glam so i nv post it up. hahaa. all those pics were taken on the 2nd day, but my mom didnt go w us tt day cos she was restin in the hotel.. tts why dun haf her. anw lye i cant wait t go SHOPPING! :D

Jain ; hehe ok jainjain! you too!! btw stella got me crazy over this jap drama called "Gokusen". duno if you know abt it. but if you dont, go watch it on youtube!! very nice!! :D

oscar the grouch.

2007-03-02T12:12:00.000+08:00

dont you just hate it when a bunch of male adolescents with raging hormones come bustling up a bus talking like loud hailers.. and 1 minute after the bus starts moving they burst into a chorus of some pop ballad song??

sigh. one such incident happened t me ytd. they were damn irritating man. its not like their voices were rich and smooth.. its horrible!! and whats with singing in public??? do you really think that dick lee will be on the bus and that he'll just come up t you and say "young lads, i think you have immense potential! i'd like t groom you into superstars of tomorrow!!"

i think not. pffffftt.

anyway ytd was a damn wet day. yucks. went for my interview in the morning.. then went t far east t change my shoes and then went for proj meeting. what a hectic day!! my legs were practically breaking after i walked from cityhall mrt t suntec macs! and after proj meeting ended i still had t walk that same distance back! FAINTS. the ground was so wet that water was like splashing onto my pantyhose. -_-

and all that rushing ard made me feel unwell. cos i was actually very hungry but when i went home i had no appetite. just ate a few mouthfuls of rice, took my panadol and went t slp. luckily i felt better after that.. was so afraid that i'd be on my way t getting stomach flu. :( THAT WOULD BE TERRIBLE!! :(((

wanted t use the rest of ytd nite t study tax. but i figured that i better slp more and rest more.. so i wasted one day again.. shit man. tax quiz is on monday and i have not started yet!! and ive Impressario finals t go t on sat! and i was supposed t catch up on IT this week but i hafnt even touched the book yet!! sorry but pls let me whine.. i really hate this semester. and i hate it when i cant speed read and absorb quickly!! dont you all just agree that i lead a sad and hard life. >.<

aint this a grouchy post. which is why my title is 'oscar the grouch'. cos i'm oscar!! gahhh. anws ive uploaded the pics i took in cameron highlands. and my new vanity series. ;P

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Jain ; huh aiyo! whos that idiot! i'll slap him for you! and kick his nuts! some guys are getting irritating these days.. been hearing a few evil deeds done by some guy. what a bastard. i'll fill you in when i see you online dear :D

mishmash.

2007-02-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

woohoo its been quite awhile since i last posted! its now my mid-semester break! though its only one week but.. better than nothing la. gonna be very busy this week with all the projs going on.. gotta juggle meetings for 3 modules! and study for tax quiz! :((

went ard t visit my relatives over the weekend cos i was in msia for CNY. hmm i think my san yi (3rd aunt) is v cute. she damn friendly and warm t ppl. sometimes abit like a kampong person but haha that's v cute i think.

anyway over the past week ive been telling myself t blog cos i saw alot of interesting/new stuff. ahh but apparently i hafnt blogged. like, comfort has a new car design for some of their taxis. they're using hyundai for some of their cabs now. looks quite comfy..

(my ant ant says hes v poor thing cos hes always being disturbed while doing something.. haha.)

i rmb when i was in sec sch, my friends and i heard alot of "horror" stories about JC and university life. there are stories like "so-and-so went t toilet and left her notes by the sink and after she came out her notes were gone" and that everyone is damn evil and plotting against each other. maybe thats true la but either i havent encountered such stuff or i'm just too gullible. and no one has stolen my notes before. probably cos my notes got nothing much for ppl.. lol

and then ppl make uni sound like everyone is damn scheming and sly etc. okay i guess there are some uni students who are likdat.. but luckily for me i think most of my friends are not. at least xuan karen and zy arent. RIGHT ZY? hahaha

as for the rest, hard t say la. ha thats why i think my sec sch friends are the best!! 4 truth! :D

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Jain ; heya jainjain! yups i'm doing fine so far.. aha. how come you removed your tagboard! i wanna tag you!!

lye ; haha ya i like their watercress! hmm i brought home alot of fruits la.. what cameron apple and lovers' fruit and strawberries. lol! oh yea i bought alot of tea also.. pass you some when we meet ok. got rose tea strawberry tea etc etc :D

ant ; aha ok lil student! hmm you have a holiday assignment. that is t bring your prof go shopping! and go newton eat yummy food. HEHE ;P

this issue of CLEO...

2007-02-17T15:59:00.000+08:00

50 Most Eligible Bachelors!

haha. actually nothing much one la. quite multi-cultural.. got one caucasian who looks like the guy in prison break, a few indians who happen t sport the bald head look, and a few artistes?

theres the guy who looks like Rain (!!!), one of the dancers of SOUL in Superband, and a Yutaki Ong who sounds familiar but i duno he is. oh yea theres some ppl from my batch.. daryl pan and matthew? hmm. oh and theres this daniel zhang who is damn big and buff and it reminds me of the tall-dark-and-handsome daniel that i know! just cos they all love t work out in the gym and his muscles are damn pop out and hes got male boobs lol!

ah but alot of them the face quite cmi la. ant ant i think you and daniel shld join next year. you guys will wow the knickers off the judges! ;D

gonna eat my reunion dinner noww! toodles~

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muscular nerd ; haha okay i will go and find the magic that will shrink you and bring you back t normal size! hehe dont worry ant ant when i come back i can do all the "wat did i do" for you ;P mwaks!!

すてら ; eh wth what is that??! anyway if you want that you gotta wait till abt july after i get my pay from internship and extra tuitions. haha or you can rob 10 million from the bank then i can buy you all the nintendo DS and PS3 and wacom that you want. :D

witch on a broom.

2007-02-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

sigh. i'm going away for CNY. wont be back till tues night. :( i'll miss my ant so muchh!

;(((((

ant can you shrink yourself into polly pocket size so i can keep you in my pocket and smuggle you into cameron highlands?? pretty pleasee~

i'll bring a miniature gym for you! and shrink all ur books too so you can study there w me! ahahah but no proteins for you ;P

oh midterm break's coming soon! yay! hopefully more time t study and play and shop and suntan! umm and more slp time too!

anw my bank bal is seriously depleting exponentially. gotta get my sis bday gift soon also.. either i need t save more money or i need t earn some money. @*#!^%$&*!

hearts and roses.

2007-02-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

well wadya know? its valentines day today! happy valentines day to all!! :)

got a surprise from my lil ant today. ahha turns out he wasnt v satisfied by how the surprise was carried out.. but its fine with me!! i dont like too much attention ant.. ;P hmm and i got a stalk of rose from keith and ben! thanks guys!! haha didnt expect you t give me smth too ;)

and i thought thats all for the day. but noooo i got cajoled by some SCI ppl t join their Radio Fusion valentines day event! a few couples are supposed t compete t see how long can the guy carry their gf.. it isnt easy okay. no piggyback-ing, thats what they said. (but the guy who approached us at first told us that we can piggyback!! sheesh man i got conned.)

there were a few rounds lah.. the first being carrying some items in your hands for 15min, with your arms stretched out 90degrees. the next round was the classic how-much-do-you-know-about-your-bf game. i got all correct!! :D the third round was that the guy has t carry their items (those in round 1) and the girl is blindfolded and she has t feed the guy a banana! the guy who finishes his banana first is the winner. and the final showdown is of course, the purpose of the event. i tell you it was so unglam man!! put aside the fact that my ant ant was perspiring cats and dogs, i was pretty uncomfortable with the way i was carried. my shirt was literally moving upwards behind and the helpers had t constantly come and pull my shirt down. (if not my bra will be showing soon!!! -_-) and we had this sticker which had our contestant number on it.. the colour ran onto my ant's shirt. its PINK. ahhh.. very very unglam. but it was quite fun lah. :)

my ant's arms were aching like mad till he cant go t the gym.. and i dun think he can write also. cos i, who only had t cling onto him so that he doesnt get t carry too much of me, had aching arms till i had problems writing. so hes in a much worse state i think. heh.

yea so cos of the event i didnt get t revise astro. and the quiz sucks la even though its only 10 qns. the qns were like how tricky??? i think i'm gonna fail man. 10 qns and its worth a fricking 15%!! shit lah! there goes my A for astro :(

seeing red.

2007-02-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

just when i've decided t paint (and painted) my toenails red (instead of my fingernails), i started t see almost every female in ntu with red toenails! and someone with red toenails just walked past me. ARGH! worse still, some of them are ppl with totally no dress sense and they cant carry off that look and they look so AUNTIE!!

pfft.
pfft.
pfft.

i'm so gonna change the colour of my toenails.

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ant ; haha i wanna watch prison break too! i hafnt watch yet! ant share with meee.. >< i'm gonna munch on hei bai pei while watchin that

lye ; heyyy lyee when's ur prelims?? my midterm break starts on 26feb!! 1 week only hehe if you're free we can meet up for dinner or just go walk walk.. okok?? :D

oof!

2007-02-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

had a really weird dream last night. i dreamt that i wanted t buy bao from the ntu canteen. and the auntie told me that the bao i wanted is not available yet cos its not heated up yet. then she suggested that i try this cheese and mushroom roll thingyi. which was put in the same big container thing?!?! (you know those tt they put the siew mai and baos in) thats like how gross?? its v hard t describe but the cheese and mushroom roll isnt those dimsum type.. more like pastry you know. its gonna be all soggy in that big container.

and i actually bought it in the dream.

the things i dream about man.. says so much abt what i think and do during the day.

overslept this morning.. was late for IT class. but that class is useless anyway. the teacher is so boring and extra. cant believe he actually volunteered us for one of his FRIEND'S phd thesis. IT THESIS! asking us t try out GOOGLE DOCS and do system flowcharts?!?! like HELLO we have more impt things t settle can?? as if the term proj isnt enough.

hmm my ant is workin today. wish i can go have lunch w him. :( hope he doesnt get too tired out hes been running ard too much these few days. ant ant do you hear meee?!?! cannot fall sick okay drink more water and slp more! and take redoxen! and grab eric's hei bai pei biscuit stick for me pls.. ;P if not you gotta bring me go shoppingg~

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del ; haha umm alright la my life nothing v interesting lately.. all school work lor. lol sure sure just let me know aights.

a walk down memory lane.

2007-02-02T09:06:00.000+08:00

phew! the past week has been really hectic, rushing t complete tutorials and proj.. so glad that 202 proj is over! only one case study report t go! woohoo! but my 201 and tax are lagging badly.. much work t be done this weekend. (its sandra's birthday this sat and shes having it at Macs KAP. so cute haha. my friend told me i'll be having happy meal there -_-")

and so i was stoning on the bus a few days ago. the weather has been really sunny in the day and breezy at night.. and this kind of weather is kinda unlike sg. so i tend t daydream that i'm in another country, like in australia, instead of bloody boonlay. and then i start thinking of the times when life was so carefree. like spending my time in sentosa soaking up the sun.. without worrying abt my readings and hw.

soon i drifted off t my 3mth holiday last yr. its been a long time since i met up w bernard i realise. and its been a long time since i had late night running sessions! (i dont even run in the day now.. no wonder my tina is showing!) those were the days man. i can do whatever i want whenever i want. i can do "loafer jobs" and get $$ t shop till i drop and still have some remaining t save. and i get t meet up w all of my friends and feel connected.

sigh.. when can i have that life back?

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lt ; hahaa its not my fault tt my mom loves t drag me on holidays in the SCHOOL TERM.. :( yea its alot of co but not many attracts me leh.. a few of those tt i was looking for are in phase 2! sad.

lye ; ahha you told me what's rhinoplasty alr.. hmm haha you're so funny! ok i'll make sure i eat more veggie there ok. ;P i hope i dont get cockeyed from reading on the bus on my way there.. haa

curse you, msn!

2007-01-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

msn keeps eating my msgs! its so damn infuriating!!!!! i cant talk t my friends properly this wayyyyyy!!!!! and zy is having a good time laughing at me!! :(

hmm so while waiting for msn t stop its nonsense, i was browsing a website karen showed me. was supposed t be looking for a gift for a friend but some pretty stuff caught my eye!!

the one on the left!! its very niceeeee!

and this toooo!!!

okay finally something t satisfy and hopefully suppress my shopaholic tendencies.. quite stressed out over uncompleted readings and professional attachment. not sure if i shld say i'm spoilt for choice or at a loss of which co t choose. i just dont know where i shld go. lol

ANYWAY. a few days ago a friend told me tt this girl in our tax class has a not v endearing trait. (even though she has a boyfriend who is supposedly quite successful.. c'mon la that guy is nearing 30 alr, his career should have gotten somewhere by then man. anw the girl is only approaching 21. generation gap man!)

which seems kinda familiar t me.. cos that trait runs in my mom too. apparently, if she (they) say smth or think in a particular manner, you cant out-argue them cos they think they're right. they're not willing t wait and listen t another's views. tsk tsk. quite interestingly, her hairstyle looks weird on her and she looks like cleopetra. :\

so my friend said, whoever works under her next time will have a incredibly hard time..

well i say, whoever is her kid will be cursed for life.

cause as her subordinate you can always quit your job and have nothing more t do with her; but as her child you'll never be able t break the r/s w her because her blood will always run in you.

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lt ; haha i'm going cameron highlands! anw i'll be bringing piles of books there la.. no time for holiday man! :(

red and gold.

2007-01-20T17:16:00.000+08:00

i went t NTUC just now wanting t buy a can of coffee. then as i was walking along the aisles, i saw many boxes of soft drinks.. and they were RED in colour with BLOSSOM prints. you know, that chinese new year motif. -_-

i'm so not in the chinese new year mood. even though my mom bought bak kwa already, and i bought my CNY clothes alr. but uhhh, i'm not gonna be in sg for the CNY period so i dont get why we're still buying all those stuff. anw, i wanna buy pineapple tarts! i like those with very buttery ones! as in those buttery crusts! quikzie's mom makes the BEST pineapple tarts! :D

so quikzie.. you know what t do arh. xD

yea what a gloomy sat. i thought the sun would be good today!! the past few days its been shining ever so brightly.. and i thought i could get a tan today. hmmpfs. maybe its a sign.. for me t study more. -_-

oh yea i got myself a manicure. RED FINGERNAILS! with uhh.. white flower stickers. its sooooo CNY! HAH.

rollercoaster ride.

2007-01-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

alrighttttt school has officially started for me. 3 days ago in fact. and let me tell you a joke. i was soooo happy on monday when i skipped 202 seminar (shh!) for my add/drop period. you know why?

the story goes like this: Before school started, I wasnt assigned any elective. and i had t clear one this semester. So when my add/drop period just started, i had added this elective called Astronomy. i just took it as a backup module cos i really really wanted another module called Popular Culture. and i waited and waited till abt 4pm when i was just SO LUCKY t see ONE vacancy in pop culture! and i quickly added it and my heart was pounding damn furiously! and YESSSSSSS I GOT ITTT! i was practically jumping up and down in joy and grinning from ear t ear and i proudly announced t the world that i finally got my elective, which was supposed t be pretty highly demanded.

AND, ytd after i saw the course syllabus for it, i nearly fainted. it was so damn tough that i didnt wanna take it. so then i was pining for a vacancy in Astronomy.. and now all my friends are teasing me abt my foolishness. haha. my ant ant said, SO MUCH FOR POP CULTURE. ;P and zy and ben gave me -_- looks when i told them abt my plans.

ok so i just cant make up my mind. but nvm, karen kindly found a friend who wanted t drop Astronomy, so NOW I'M IN IT! yay! and add/drop was cool today cos i managed t change a few of my classes and now my timetable is quite nicely done. not as nice as i would like it t be, but with it i can have more time t meet my ant. :D the catch is, all my school days start at 830. :( hmms and xuan and ben all got their desired timetables too with alot of friends in their classes.. they're in the same IT class!

first week of school and i'm already so tired out. didnt get t study much the past few days.. which is bad cos the classes are moving at such a fast speed! arghhh more slp for me pls. and of cos more money too. i'm in need of $$!!

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del ; heyyys i'm fine! just a lil caught up w school work i guess. haa i havent been makin jewellery for qt sometime too lol

lye ; ahahha ohh thats a new word for me!! anw your nose looks fine la why do you wanna go for a rhinoplasty?? i'm sure von thinks you look totally fabulous with ur current nose ;P

to my beloved.

2007-01-05T12:24:00.000+08:00

ant ant.. i'm leaving for the hotel soon. i'll miss ya so much!! but nvm, i've brought along my phone and charger so we can still chat. i cant wait t see you again! dont worry abt our problems ok.. we'll work them out! cheer up ant!

sigh. a mossy just bit me. ha ha and i can scratch it for as long as i like and you cant stop meee~ i'll be a monkeyy! aha. sometime over next week i hope we can watch charlottes web tog. i think the pig is cute! and you look like that rat. ;x

hmms ant just do whatever you need t do ok. dont worry abt me i can take care of myself. and dont worry abt driving, you'll do fine! anw i dreamt last nite that i was driving a car. and that my legs are too clumsy and i couldnt reach the brakes. heh hehhh.

lets go get our books tog next week! :D hug hugs!!

good things never last.

2007-01-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

alas! my hols are coming t an end. will be going back t sch next week. sigh.. i dont really look forward t the semester ahead. the modules are gonna be super taxing (hurhur. no pun intended) and i still have my cca on top of everything. and theres also PA t settle. i really dont think that my life before the midterm break will be good. i already have readings t do even before school started! :( but i dont think i'll be doing them.

and i need money. i just cant wait for this sem t end so i can go work part-time somewhere. hoho, the sem hasnt even started and i'm wishing for it t end already. anw, its true. i'm kinda looking forward t year 3 sem 1 BECAUSE,
1. i'll have more time t sustain my tuition(s)
2. i'll be taking 4 modules, out of which i'll s/u 2 of it.
3. no more cca for me then. maybe except some subcomms.
4. uhh. i'll be nearing 21 yrs old by then?

hmm ok so reason no.4 is crap. but yea i'm also looking forward t being 21. i wanna sign up for a special savings account in stanchart! but they said ONLY 21 AND ABOVE! :( and i really wanna go on a diving course! and t go overseas with my friends!

ever heard of mid-life crisis? i think i'm going thru a quarter-life crisis here. sudddenly i dont know what i'm doing or why i'm doing things for. i just feel at a loss sometimes. i need money but i dont really know where t get it, cause i dont think i'm equipped with enough skills t do many things. i dont really do constructive thinking; just spent 20 yrs of my life thinking only about shopping and having fun. bahh.

ok on a lighter note, i was out with lye just now and we had such great time!! she gave me snow white jigsaw puzzle for my birthday!! YAY! its 1000 pieces so i can have a gd time piecing them tog in the summer hols. and we went muji t buy stationery. i bought a really cool ballpoint pen! feel like going back t get another one.. hmm. and GUESS? is like having 70% off for most of their items, its really v worth it! just that we didnt find anything t buy..

ive been pretty frustrated lately cos of a few issues. i just hope that things will be better after school starts. and i just hope that i'll be able t manage my time well so theres enough time for everyone. someone please save me!

ps. i love chatting on msn now cos i think my font is very pretty! lol!

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Jain ; hehe i'm well already! :D and yea.. i'll try not t think too much. just gotta be v clear abt what i'm doing lor. :(

lt ; haha you got your court shoes from everbest? i think the robinsons sale is damn worth it!! i dont think they'll give you blisters la at most wear stockings lo ;X hehehe and hope 07 is a better year for you too! at least this coming sem will be better than the last for you. :) and hmm, okay i'll sms you my number now.. haha

i'll never let you go.

2006-12-29T15:28:00.000+08:00

oh finally i can blog! gmail was down for the past few days and i couldnt even check my email! thanks t karen who told me abt some earthquake in taiwan that affected our cables.. hmm. i really admire how she bothers t read the newspapers or watch the news.

feeling quite down recently. so much has happened just before 2006 is ending. wont dwell on it much, i prefer t keep the details private. or rather, just within my inner circle...

xmas eve wasnt a very pleasant one.. you know in chinese ppl call it 平安夜? it wasnt a least bit 平安 man. very drama in fact. and then i fell sick ytd?? vomitted my guts out?? thank goodness i'm feeling better now.. but thats just physically.

i. am. emotionally. DRAINED.

and because of all this, i'm seriously considering going t australia t take my CPA. all my friends know how unwilling i am t leave sg for another country, even though the cost of living is so high and everyone leads a fast-paced life in here. because all my friends are in this little country and friends are very very important t me. but i think i need a little space apart from my family if we cant solve this amiably. if there isnt any way i can make things work for everyone. ;( SIGH.

rolyn rolyn.. what would i do without you? hmms. i really treasure the friendship between us.. and i hope no matter where we go in future, no matter which part of the globe, we'll still be as close as we are.. so glad that i'll be meeting you tmr. :)

alright guys. i gotta take a rest alr.

(i'll never take off the ring on my finger.)

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jem. ; still got more pics la hafnt upload yet. yea my results are out.. luckily i did fine. anw you tk care alrights. i dun think theres much reason for me t enjoy the coming year.

lt ; lol are shoes really that cheap in bkk? lol yea i did fine.. just gotta do better next sem lor. hope yours was fine too :)

lye ; oic.. haha i think i'm colourblind.. i thought her earrings were same colour as urs.. lol when i went t look closely then i saw the diff. anw hope t see ya soon ok. or talk t you online.. lots of stuff t talk.

incoherent thoughts.

2006-12-27T01:25:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!

ok jem just said i was unfriendly. so i shall be friendly and say,

HI JEM!!!!!! :D

jem claims he's friendly. but he doesnt tag meee even though he reads my blog. so we shall see if hes really friendly. ;P

hmmms, just heard some bad news. results are coming out on the 28th. its so sad la, my hols are gonna end soon and i have a feeling its gonna end on an unhappy note. and its still raining cats and dogs everyday.. i dowanna go out and have my feet soaked in puddles of rainwater! ><

i'm so sleepy these days. must be the rain. i so wanna snuggle up under my sheets and sleeeep. or stay indoors and watch movies. i'd go videoezy t rent a whole load of movies if i hadnt lost my videoezy card.. and if my sis hadnt owed them a overdue fine. i think she returned her rental like 1 or 2 weeks late la. -faints.

oh well. anw today i went robinsons t shop with my mom. i think if you guys/girls wanna get shoes you can go there.. they're having a sale and its really quite worth it. even more worth it if you/ur mom is a robinsons cardmember. i bought 2 pairs of shoes! sandals and court shoes. ;D comfy comfy ones so my feet wont hurt. the shoes may not be as nicelooking as my pointy heels but they sure wont give me blisters and deformed feet. so yea, heck care abt appearance la, my court shoes are still very trendy yet professional looking so its gd for presentations and attachment.

-GROANS. oh man, attachment. hafnt started thinking abt it yet. gotta start doing it soon.. and my brain isnt really working v well now so i think i shall continue blogging another time. took some pictures during xmas eve.. i'll upload it soon. and since i bought more materials for my earrings again, i shall do something tmr. hehe yayy.

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lye ; ahhaha yupp just like you!! ;D lets go out again before my hols end! hehe

ant ; orhh ok! ant ant has soft chubby cheeks! and dimples!! i wanntttt :D and i wanna watch charlotte's web with youuuuu! and eragon tooo! hmm ant i think we should take more pictures ;P

hear me ROAR.

2006-12-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

i wanted t blog abt alot of happy stuff, but after blogger took such a bloody long time t load the page (i waited a good fking 30min before i reached the LOGIN page of blogger), i'm just too filled with fury t blog abt anything nice.

so yea. normally i wouldnt mind a bit of rain, since it allows me t coop myself up at home and read a good book. but its raining elephants and dinosaurs now, and seriously, if rain was human and could run, this one can easily complete a 100km marathon in 1 hour. LOOK AT ITS STAMINA! it has been raining NONSTOP since 2 mornings ago!! i had t bring an umbrella out when i went t town today, and as if thats not enough of a hassle, the floor was so bloody FLOODED that i stepped onto a puddle of water the moment i got out of the bus. and my beautiful birks were SOAKED. thanks alot.

and i was feeling real pissed off just now because i hafnt been blogging for so long. so much fun i wanna blog about and i just dont have the chance everynite. cos my sis hogs the comp. and i havent even uploaded my pictures la. GRR. i will do it tmr night.

and so. now for some happy stuff. my dearest ant gave me a really good birthday celebration!! hehe he brought me t a restaurant in hbf and had specially ordered a tiramisu beforehand.. with a candle on it! and he knows that i dont like too much attention so he told the staff not t sing happy birthday song for me. ;D and then we went t sentosa t look at stars!! luckily tt night didnt rain.. phew! ant really spent alot of effort and capital on it.. and i really appreciate it! hehe no one has done this for me before... ;P and he gave me smth special.. that i'd keep close t me and never let it out of my sight. hehe!

and my mom cooked for me dinner on my birthday. maybe some of you think its no big deal.. but i rarely get t eat home-cooked food.. so that was really a treat for me!! ;D and i had tiramisu cake again. this time its a big one.. for me t blow birthday cake. yeah~

and today! i went out with my carolyn! so good t see her again.. she gave me a very cute birthday gift ;P and we had lots of fun gossiping and catching on each other's life ;P ok so we went town.. didnt really find anything in marina square lah. anw i banned myself from buying anymore stuff except xmas gifts.. cos i really spent alot on shopping alr. so i didnt get anything for myself, while she got herself a pair of wedges from URS. yayy.. and since there isnt anything in marina tt i can get for my ant for xmas, we headed down t raffles city. and woohoo! alot of shops there tt has stuff for guys! so i popped into one of them.. and saw smth i thought ant would like. but i was quite pissed off that they didnt have a new one. i chose another one with a similar design, and again they didnt have a new one. -_-

seriously, if everything that's available is already on display, and you actually intend t SELL them, please have the decency t keep them in a GOOD CONDITION? and it wouldnt be asking too much from a shop that sells branded stuff right? if theres a big spoilage that is really obvious, who will want t part with so much money for it??!?!

sigh. ok. and carolyn wanted t get smth from polo jeans. but every design she asked for, in M size, was out of stock. like, cant you stock up??? i'm quite sure your company wasnt set up just yesterday (a picture from one of your shirts says "polo denim since 1967"), so maybe inference from past sales would tell you that most of your customers are a M size? or at least that the average Singaporean male wears a M size shirt? so you'd probably need more M size apparel and maybe you should stock up on more M sizes??? its really quite irritating everytime i hear "sorry no more stock".

so she settled for a quite nice tshirt, and we went off t the concierge for our free gift-wrapping service. and then i went home while carolyn went t meet her friends for dinner. anyway! i went on this 162 bus and its interior is like SO COOL! its like all the big cushion seats like a sofa, and the layout is like an mrt. then theres this small bar with two high chairs. its like a bar on the go! and its supposed t be for this music mobile thing that nokia is workin on.. i think its for their new 5300 phone. so i think they sponsored this new layout. haha and those young punks that boarded the bus were like "wtf is this?" LOL. quite amusing. yea if any of you catch that bus, you shld take a few more pictures in it. i dont think it'll be here for long.. hahaha.

ok now, that was a long post. i'm very 长气. hehe. and its so freaking cold now, i'm going t hide myself under my warm blanket. tmr i'm meeting my ant! ;DD toodles!

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ant ; ANTTTTTTTT i'm so happy you tagged!! yup i missed your tag leh.. hehe. i'm looking at something shiny now.. anyway squirrel was a good girl today! she didnt buy anything from shopping! and i wanted to show carolyn the onion furniture at barang barang but it wasnt there at the marina branch!! why?!?! ;((

will this ever end.

2006-12-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

i'm so so tired.. but i'm happy! had lots of fun the past few days.. and its only gonna get better! ;D

cos my birthday is coming. hehehe

went shopping on wed with lye.. couldnt find much stuff in vivo, sadly. but i went t meet my ant after that, and i found my shoes and belt in far east! woohoo! happy happy. but ive got most of the stuff i planned for alr.. so no more shopping this hols. though i may just buy a few pieces of materials for my accessories site.. heh.

went for dinner with karen joanne sandra and weiting last nite. had a lovely country manna dinner, followed by dessert at coffee club. tried my first iced tiramisu latte.. very nice! haha. i dont usually chill out at such nice places cos usually i dont really see a point in doing so. cos the food is quite ex? considering you're just finding a place t chill out.. you can always pay for a good dinner at somewhere with ambience and still enjoy it. hmmms but i think i shld learn t enjoy life abit. ;P

went swimming today with ant. there was a lil rain at first.. but after awhile the sun came out! strong. haha and i loved it. and my ant was sooooo sweet! he made me lunch! yummy lunch and he put many of my favourite mussels into my share. ;DD awww.. i really appreciate that. so ive decided its time for me t learn t cook a decent meal. i wanna learn t cook good chinese food!! like my mom!! lalalalaa

and tmr nite i'll be spending time with my ant again. haha. someones planned lots of surprises for meee for my birthday on mon. and i love surprises. ;)

you know, i wish ntu could be nice and give me a good birthday present. since they've totally ruined my mood for a good half of the hols previously. give me all As this sem!!! HAA.

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Jain ; ahha yup i said so! and i will! :D miss ya hun.

pure bliss.

2006-12-12T10:58:00.000+08:00

i had a fun fun FUN day with darling ytd! hehe i love eating at mad jacks. though the portion's kinda small.. but its still nice. and i think vanila ice-cream tastes wonderful! ahhaha. they played 'shark tale' there while we were eating! ooh i just love cartoons. and i love the long bus ride with darling! snuggle snuggle. hmmm gave him a surprise also.. so happy tt he liked it. ;D mmhmm lunch at mad jacks, dinner at JP.

oh yea, met yq and raf in jp. yq looks different, raf looks even MORE different! to the extent that i dun even recognise him laa! i thought he was yq's ns friend.. until i see him grinning nonstop at me that i took a 2nd look and realised it was raf. -_- skinnier alr. and he told ant and i some shocking news. really horrific news.. that i didnt hear abt. and ant thought raf was v funny. ;P

and on my way home, the ribbon on one of my shoes happily dropped out without me knowing. it was only after i got home that i realised it was gone!! shit man, then i cant wear my shoes anymore. one side got ribbon only how t wear! ;( but its a gd excuse t get another pair of flats. i'm gonna get a cheap and comfy one.. heehee. -smiles gleefully.

woke up this morning just t see the sun shining so brightly (again!) in the clear BLUE sky. seriously ive given up hope hoping for a bright good sun on days when i'm supposed t go suntan. i'm always trying t fight the sun cos it always goes against me! ;(

so anyway. i wake up and i see the good weather.. trees look greener than usual, sky looks blue-er than usual. and its not even humid! its windy! this is the perfect weather!! not only t tan.. but just perfect in general. ahhhh and i just stuck my head out of the window t gaze at the clouds. and this big fluffy cloud was moving leftwards.. and apparently the entire cloud didnt move at the same speed. some parts moved quicker, some slower. so it ends up that the big cloud split into bunches of smaller clouds.. which looked pretty thin like CANDY FLOSS. yummy. but too bad i dont fancy white candy floss. so candy floss also moves left.. but somehow as it moves, it disintegrates and just disappears. and i dont know how that happens. but i just keep staring at it, stoning(yes, and wishing i was in sentosa tanning myself away) and just taking in all of this.

you know, its this kind of weather that is so un-Singapore. usually sg is like hell, so HOT that everyone's sweating profusely.. or else its raining cats and dogs. in worse cases, its damn humid that ppl just wanna shut themselves up at home and blast the aircon. and how abt it being so warm but its so cloudy tt ppl cant suntan? tt seriously sucks you know. the clouds at suntanning locations(like swimming pool and sentosa?) just happily cover the sun whereas clouds are nowhere t be seen at places like ur home garden or smth.

so since its so rare that sg encounters such great weather, i sit there and daydream and imagining tt i'm in australia now. how cool that'll be man! like, so relaxing and carefree! plus, you can go t the beach anytime t suntan and they have really clear blue waters! or how abt scuba diving or even snorkelling?!?! just makes me wanna get close t the beach. though i avoid touching the sand when i'm covered with tanning lotion, i still prefer the beach t swimming pools. the pool looks so modern and just not cosy.. no atmosphere you know!

hmm. oh well, sorry t make you guys wade thru that few paras of weird musings. i'm just.... in love with blue skies. ahhaha. so ive decided that this fri when i go swimming with darling, i'll go EARLY in the morning t catch the sun.

[edit]ant why dont you tag me anymoreeeeeeee ;(( [/edit]

passing showers.

2006-12-10T20:31:00.000+08:00

yes! here it is! my new blog layout! isnt smth great la but its simple enough for me. :D

man i must be some magnet for passing rain clouds. went t bishan swimming complex today with my ant hoping t get a tan, but 10mins after i got there, the clouds were covering my mister sun! and mister sun couldnt give me a good tan. pfftt. as if that wasnt bad enough, it started t shower soon after! and i could see the surrounding BLUE SKY with GREAT SUN!! -.-

so i went t the canteen t eat mee siam. very nice mee siam. ok so anyway we sat there.. waiting for the rain t stop. it did, and still no sun. so i thought we might as well get out of there and go somewhere else. when we crossed over t the sports stadium, the sun was SHINING SO DAMN BRIGHTLY. there wasnt any cloud in sight laa! dammit man.. i need a tan desperately. and then when i got down the bus and am gonna walk home, passing showers again. it really isnt fun being under passing showers all day man.

ok and i finally visited vivo last week. wheee! bought many many things from there! and i'm still lacking a pair of nice heels, as well as a pair of slippers for my sis. hmmm.. shall get it this week. after that i think i need a break from shopping. i just wanna go ard chilling out with my ant! sentosa or vivo or chijmes or indochine! wherever! YAYY ;D

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lt ; ahha good for you!! ;D actually i kinda think its gotta do with the modules.. when i was reg the mods you're taking next sem, all the classes were tutorials so alot t choose from.. so i guess less chance of ppl wanting the same index as you, since there are other classes at the same timeslot. but now i'll be taking all seminar classes, which happens t have only ONE index for ONE timeslot. and it doesnt help that 201 and 202 always clashes with tax classes. curse them man. lol

lye ; haha you hafnt bought your jeans? i saw a Lady Style 3quarters at levis the other day.. pretty nice! but pretty damn ex too! lol nvm we shall have a good time this wed! hahaha and fel and xy cfm coming alr? hehe

slowpoke day.

2006-12-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

i am so bored at home. just finished completing my online earring site.. including the logo. its such a long dreary day today, i cant wait t go vivocity with my lil ant tmr! anyone knows whether theres a RAOUL outlet there??

feel so bad for making my ant miss the chance t suntan ytd. it was so cloudy and i really thought we couldnt get a good tan! gahhh. so we ended going t the library and hanging out in j8. the vietnamese food in the food court is pretty nice! haa it was my first time trying it ytd! HEHE.

feeling so disgusted with ntu. i'm trying not t let the bloody screwed up timetable issue affect my hols. but sad t say, IT IS AFFECTING ME ALR. someone burn down ntu please.! everyday i cant relax properly cos that disgusting timetable is at the back of my mind! grrr.

the only thing tt can somehow appease me would be.........

t score all A- and above for my exams. which i think is highly unlikely. SO SOMEONE BURN DOWN NTU PLEASE! ;((

its a starry starry day.

2006-12-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness i'm in ntu now. getting ready t reg subject. SO NERVOUS! i bet theres like 1000 ppl fighting for the same class index later. sheesh! its a case of fastest fingers first man. ahhhhh!

anyway. i went shopping last week and i bought a dress/top for $18!! haha what a stealllll! i'm like so damn happy that day. and i went for my first manicure! it feels great man its as though you're a princess.! ok but i dun have so much money t spend on those manicure parlours and my skills arent that bad so i can stick t painting my own nails. ;D

i was a gd girl tt nite cos i slept after taking panadol. and i was totally ok the next morning! fully energised t go shopping! yeaaa.

and ive completed my new blog layout.. duno when t load it. i think i'll miss this layout after i put it. hmmm.. not because i love seeing my picture. hahah. sigh. time t get ready for fastest fingers first. ;((

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Jain ; haha what were you doing up so late ytd nite ar?!?! anw lets go kbox or shopping soon ok! hehe lovelove!

johnn ; har nope. where were you sitting? lol. haha supper makes ppl fat. ;x

freedom at last!

2006-11-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

YES!!!! exams have ended! oh wheee! its time t go shopping and tanning and meeting my ant and catching up with friends!

it was real horrible today, i had t wait till 5pm t take my paper! it ended at 730pm so i couldnt go anywhere after that. dammit. but i went t meet my lil ant and ate dinner.. hehe and just relaxed in his room.

and ever since i woke up this morning, i knew i was falling sick. i felt even more sick while i was doing the paper, but luckily my mind was still pretty clear. i was feeling really feverish when i was lazing around in ant's room.. and now, my head's SPINNING.

sigh, what a way t end the exams. i took panadol, so hopefully i'll be fine by tmr morning. supposed t go shopping with my sis. hmm i wanted t start designing my blog layout but my head really isnt in a good condition now, i think i'll leave it till tmr. right now i gotta start clearing all my unread emails.. its piling up like mad in my mailbox. will update soon! cya guys enjoy ur holidays!

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lt ; haha yea i double spec but i nv take any module this sem leh. like v shiong. but i realise tt next sem is worse so i'm considering dropping it. cos right, double spec is not reflected in our cert la!! bloody hell you know! it'll only be in our transcript, like ONE LINE. omg i seriously dun think the employers will bother t read that tiny line la. -_-

a day of trauma.

2006-11-17T01:06:00.000+08:00

ok i cant believe this. i was brutally murdered by the forensic science paper. t think that it was all MCQ! SHEESH why is my lecturer so bad?? i really really hope i can do well for it, since its almost the only module this sem tt can help t pull up my gpa. :(

and i was chatting with a fren just now, hes seriously scaring me. hes someone DAMN SMART, doing double spec in B&F. he has this bunch of study buddies who are DAMN PIA. and this friend of his is apparently very sad that he didnt get into DEAN'S LIST and so he is pia-ing his guts out this semester. like WHAT!?! then they are all very hardworking and smart one.. really 一山还有一山高. and he invites me t go study with them.

.....

i think he wants me t die of embarrassment. my level of intelligence is seriously not as high as theirs.. and i dont know them at all?! likdat how t study! i will be so paranoidddd la really. and i'll be so self-conscious of my level of intelligence tt i'll spend more time fretting over it than studying. the horror! -_-

but i know that's gonna be some positive influence.. so i shall join them only next sem. gotta slowly ease into the grp first.. i'm shy man. HAHAH.

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Stel ; ohhhhh man. ok but please dont draw any more of tt horrible guy ok. the one whom i sat on a few nights ago. XD

lye ; hahah ok i'm not as bad as you.. i nv club for 6 mths only. LOL. ok la lets go check it out tog! then you go check out vivocity with me ok! haha cant wait for feli t come back then we can all go chillll at someplace niceee ;D

gw ; haha no leh my frens all not auntie one.. i most auntie liao. LOL

Jain ; jainjain~! i'm not v ok.. kinda overstressed. lol.. but i'll be fine! -hugs!

lt ; haha i think everyone fabricated stories leh! i got a fren she told me tt her friend still write "the deceased was watching TV with the attacker and then they had conflict abt changing TV channels. then the attacker threw the ashtray out of the window tts why its broken." like WTH?!

vicky ; heyy babe ive emailed you! hahah omg tts real bad. luckily tts only a temp site. after i finish my exams i shall do up the new site! wheee! :D

monochrome.

2006-11-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

that, is the colour of my life right now. UGH.

i am one unhappy girl. ;(

why? some of you may already know. exams are coming up, so i'm spending my time eating up my books. but exams alone dont have such an effect on me. i am FLABBY; i lack EXERCISE. i'm deprived of MONEY, SHOPPING, SUNTANNNING and KBOXING. i'm also deprived of my ant and MEETUPS with long-time-no-see friends. -POUTS.

all in all, i feel so DAMN ISOLATED. LONER. QUARANTINED. yea cos i have the exam bug so i gotta be kept at home for the good of everyone else. so that this crazy woman here wont go ard terrorising innocent ppl. -sobs.

anyway. i was surfing friendster just now and i came across many many people tt i knew from the cs days. i dont really talk t alot of them now.. which is kinda sad. i mean, "bumping" into them again reminds me of the fun i had in the past.. just makes me nostalgic you know. i miss those times. but all i can do is t keep those treasured memories somewhere safe in me. things tt you long t do and things tt you must do; they seem t lie on parallel lines.. they nv meet, they're two different paths. yea, can any of you imagine an accountant playing CS the whole day? HAH. and i'm not talking abt public holidays please.

so before i was surfing friendster, i was actually looking for a friend of mine. cos quikzie and i were talking abt her few days back. this lil girl was my godsis, and shes extremely cute. shes no longer a little girl now la; shes blossomed into a very pretty lady. and as what tino would say, HOT BABE! yea. little miss wild started clubbing at a tender age of 15; shes 17 now and shes better at makeup than me! gawdd, she makes me feel ashamed of myself. pooey.
hmm anw i lost contact with her since she left for aussie a few yrs back. though she was on my msn, i seldom talked t her. probably cos i was seldom online too -_- haha but recently she came back t study makeup.. and bumped into quikzie at vivocity. ;p

YEA so my main point is, i think i shld meet up with her soon. LOL. though i think it'l be quite stressful t be walking ard town with her.. haa. but well. shld catch up with her before she flies back t aussie. and t see if shes got any of that aussie accent. hahah.

i wish i had an aussie accent. i shld go live in gold coast for a yr and come back with a great tan, great skin and great aussie accent. HAHA. ;x pardon me, i'm just trying t destress. hehe ;D

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IZE ; YEAAA man. lets go kbox ok. AHHA ;p or go sentosa also can. ask shox and quikzie along! hehe

gw ; yeaaa! and then gw can go out with auntie! i intro you girl ok! ;p

stel ; haha lala i'm trying t man. but my determination is waningggg... boohoohoo.

panic! in the exam hall.

2006-11-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

hah. if i dont buck up, that's gonna happen t me.

anyway, despite this fear of doing badly for exams, i feel a sense of utter DEPRIVATION from my retail therapy and basking under the sun! i mean c'mon almost everyone i know has been t VIVOCITY alr and i hafnt. and i saw how WHITE my feet were today.

I AM EXTREMELY FAIR NOW.

that isnt good. and i think i'm too deprived from shopping that when i see a apparel shop i simply go BERSERK. sighs, an extreme case of deficiency in shopping. anw i've made plans. i need t buy a new bag cos my current one's spoiling. so i'm gonna get a fred perry bag after exams. and i plan t do my shopping and suntanning in a day since vivocity is just outside sentosa. :D

you know guys.. i'm sorry tt i hafnt had anything exciting t share with you.. i dont like my life being so boring too but well. its just a phase ive t go thru before exams.. i wont blame you if you find my entries a tad too boring t read these days ;(

hehe but those of you who still read them anyway, THANK YOU SO MUCHHH!! i love you guys just as much as you love me ;x

[/edit]okay i forgot t add. i'm quite sick of my blogskin and i'm so gonna do a new one after exams. a simple one tt allows me t be as creative as i want t. been doin some research so.. okay stay tuned. LOL. i'm gonna slp now gdnight.

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IZE ; LOL. by the time i reply your tag, i think you would've finished updating ur blog abt the one week trip already. haa ;p

lt ; yea how come arh! tts gd la haha. saw you queuing up for the ABC goodie bag also ;p my cca ar, students union special projs lor. as biz mag. haha

gw ; aiyooo gw. tell me abt it man. my work is like endless. ~.~

johnn ; you've plenty of time t find one after ur Os. lol

lye ; lyeee i tagged at ur blog alr! lets go buy fred perry bag after exams ok!!?!? :D ya ya i so wanna move t hbf man. HEHE i also wanna check out st james! but von allow ar? my ant dont allow leh >< i miss you lyee

raindrops.

2006-10-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

its been really rainy these days, though i often see the sun in the morning before i go t school. rainy weather makes me feel like sleeping. and this is bad cus i really cant afford t slp! i dont have enough time t study!

rainy weather makes me think of my lil ant too. and right now hes gonna need a little time off for himself.. so we're gonna meet like once or twice a week only. i'm so sad! i miss my ant. and i'm looking forward t lunch every thursday with him. boohoo! ;( ant pls sleep more okay, i dont like seeing you becoming a zombie and being so tired..

the semester's coming t a close. this week's the last week of lecture, next week's the last week of tutorials and whoosh! we're off t exams! -_- i feel so UNPREPARED. had my presentation on mon alr. was pretty jittery abt it but i gave my best. i really cant do much if my tutor decides t continue t be biased and totally ignore my efforts. and my grp scored pretty low for another assignment. kinda discouraged, dont know what t do for my exams.

ok enough of studies. GOSSIP TIME! sat with janice for law lecture today. haha and we were gossiping away abt the plastics. and checking out some pretty girls. hah tt sounds wrong but i wont explain. yea the plastics are really "admirable". one of them wears spaghetti straps all day long and doesnt even feel cold in the lecture theatres, when she sits UNDER the aircon vent with the aircon BLASTING away. and another one, has really long fingernails that changes colour every week. i wonder how she can write properly?!?! her fingernails are at least an inch long i tell you!

and janice told me abt a junior. apparently she changed alot since hc days and shes in smu now AND shes the pageant queen. didnt believe jan that the girl changed so much tt she doesnt look like before. i mean, how much can a person change from 17 yrs old t 19 yrs old? and she wasnt even fat t start with. no glasses too. no frizzy hair no unglam features or whatsoever. but boy, when she showed me her friendster, i was at a loss for words! i dont know how she did it but she seriously looks very different. and the only thing i can think of is: she went for plastic surgery. HAHA. of cos i dont think shes such a person but.. well. you get what i mean.

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johnn ; yea she tells me shes worried for Os, yet she isnt studying as hard as she should. and i need a job before i can shop. oh man.

guangwei ; LOL! tts cos vivocity is a place for me! hahaha. gwgw sorry i hafnt been talking t you much k.. tt nite was busy with presentation. i'll catch up with ya soon! meanwhile you tk care, dont think too much! :)

IZE ; haha tt was real nice of you t forget t say hi t me. ;( yea dress john up as a pumpkin! hah. anw how was ur italy trip?

happy hari raya.

2006-10-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

yea happy hari raya t all!

man this is the start of my nightmare. i think i hate alot of things. other than my cursed ab214 tutor, i kinda dislike my cca. cos my chairperson loves t fix meetings in the evenings, which is so very inconvenient for me since i dont stay in the hostel! and the other wing of my cca likes t fix meetings at the LAST MINUTE. sheesh, why cant some ppl understand that my life doesnt revolve around their bloody meetings. no life-ers.

if not for the sake of my resume i wont even give a damn about them. hmmpf.

went t town over the weekend. wanted t buy clothes.. a top actually. but once again, i just couldnt find the right one. i think my next shopping trip shall be after my exams, t vivocity. and i'll SPLURGE. heheh ;p

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johnn ; you gonna leave it long and then cross-dress for some cosplay issit. lolol

ant ; ant i realise tt i dun haf many nicknames for you! only bammbamm.. and ant. but nvm, i still love you all the same :D btw i wont go for cosplay lar.. not my kinda thing.. but if theres a character tt doesnt need much dressing up then i'll accompany skunk lor. hehe! its ok tt you dont drive la dear. the bus uncle will drive me. :D

feel my energy fizzling away.

2006-10-17T09:30:00.000+08:00

i'm getting really really exhausted easily these days. either i'm becoming more piggish, or i'm doing more stuff without realising it. or maybe my books are evolving into greek manuals so i zap up more energy trying t understand them.

1 more mth t exams. hmmm. and i hafnt started revising. but then again, in ntu who does? everyone's still scrambling trying t finish their projects. haha. i hear someone near me talking LOUDLY abt how t write their report. -_-"

btw my internet is up BUT stella just decided t screw up IE and firefox. ive no idea wth she did but she just made them not work. i think my c drive was hacked, AGAIN. this is really infuriating! and so, i think you might've guessed that i'm blogging in school now.

9.15 in the morning and i'm feeling so drowsy. mind you, i woke up at 6.15am and reached sch at 7.30am. how am i gonna survive this day t 2.30?!?! gahhh. and i'm itching t go buy more materials for my earrings. somebody stop me before i squander my limited reserves away. ;(

ahh well. i shall look forward t my jay chou cd from sandra, and running my fats away with my ant this friday. HEHE. ;D

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Jain ; hehe girlie you too! miss ya <3

lye ; haha eh where you buy fred perry from?! i think i shld get one too my bag is spoiling! ugh. and ya hbf tt area gonna be damn happening. got clubs too! stjames! :D i shall move t hbf next time ahahha

johnn ; hmmm okay.. but i'm really sleepy right now.. btw have you gotten urself a haircut? ha i think my hair's shorter than urs lol

did you guys miss me?

2006-10-10T09:47:00.000+08:00

haha hello guys. its been a long time since i last updated my blog. was pretty busy with school.. though its only been a week. AND, my internet connection is down. -.-

wont be doing much updating.. unless something interesting happens in my life. lol for now i guess it'll be just study, proj meetings, study, cca meetings.. and gym? hah. my friend did a count down and theres only 5 more weeks to exams! -GASP. since when did time pass so quickly??!!

but nvm, exam come quickly, exam end quickly. hehe. then i can start working for my shopping spree and do meetups with my friends AND enjoy xmas. hmmmm..

okay i gotta start loving my books. and my proj group mates. gahhh! sorry if this has been a boring post ;x

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johnn ; aha that must've been a sight. if only i was there t witness it. LOL. shld've video-ed it down using his cam!

qu|kZ ; LOL that's the IN thing for stella! not quikzie! hahaha

Jain ; HI DEAR GIRLLL!! how are youuuu miss ya miss ya miss ya!

lye ; hellos! ya i think you v long nv update your blog also man. haha sorry tt day couldnt go with you t buy crumpler bag. btw raffles city basement got crumpler shop! can go there check out the bags lo. after exams meet up with xinyi ok! tt day i just spoke t her over the phone haha

where did all my time go t?

2006-10-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

yea one week just flew by likdat. how can! i hafnt enjoyed my hols properly yet! ;((

went shopping with my deardear on thurs. the day didnt start off well.. but it was ok in the end. went town and marina sq, but didnt find anything tts t my liking. hmmm. thats like the saddest thing tt can ever happen t a shopaholic you know! but nvm la i spent time with my lil ant, tts more impt! and i finished my portion of billy bombers for the first time in my life tt day. usually i'm too stuffed by the time i'm halfway thru but i happily finished my chicken tt nite. mmm i think i was too hungry from all that shopping.. hehe.

and yesterday was my dear's birthday! we went for dinner tog.. and then we went home. i mean I went home. ;p BUT I DIDNT KNOW THERE WAS MIDNIGHT SHOPPING AT MARINA SQ AND SUNTEC! DAMN DAMN DAMN i could've shopped t my heart's content lahhhhhhh ;( complained t him this morning and he was v amused by me. hmmm. what a cutie.. hehe!

school starts again tmr. more proj meetings, more presentations t do, and more cca meetings t go t! WOW i cant wait! -.-

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qu|kZ ; haha graveyard sucks right. i wanted t have a malibu pineapple but they dont have it there! damn sad ;(

Jain ; hehe girlll i miss ya too! maybe after a mth or two when my exams are over, we can go shopping~ hehe tk care ok! -mwaks.

sunkissed.

2006-09-24T00:03:00.000+08:00

yea!! i finally got my tan! hahaha. went for quikzie's birthday celebration at sentosa today and the sun was good so i got my tan ;p

met up with alot of ppl, like quikzie jeremy shox donald victoria SHAWN etc. it was fun, played games like soccer, frisbee and dog n bone. lol attempted t teach some ppl t play ultimate frisbee but i guess the game is seriously unknown t them. so well. and i think i suck at throwing frisbees.. i need t throw it around more often. took some pictures and basically sunbathed on the beach. and everyone had a fun time burying jeremy, haha. the only sad thing was tt i couldnt stay for dinner; felt really bad cos i told quikzie that my sis and i would be staying but in the end we had t leave.. ;(

and its the start of my midsem break. yoohoo! i actually feel happy though i'll be studying everyday cos i finally have time t catch up with my sch work! so that when sch starts again i'll be on par with everyone else.. and i'll try not t lag again. teehee. yea but the past few days ive been sleeping really early for some unknown reason.. a sign of me slacking off alr. oh nooo.

now i really sound like someone with no life. hrmms. i wanna swim, i wanna tan, i wanna meet up with all my frens, i wanna study, i wanna shop, i wanna do so many things!! man could i PLEASE have 72 hours a day??

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Jain ; haha yea man money tree! tt'll be the best plant species ever!! but sadly.. this will never come true.. money doesnt grow on trees ;( they grow in the bank! haha

qu|kZ ; hehe its alr here! and gone! ;x i hope you as much fun as i did.. the night scenery at sentosa is simply gorgeous! esp at the viewing towers opp palawan beach. but i guess its a lil late t tell you this now hehe

lt ; haha no la i'm no taitai. i slog my guts out for my studies >< i wasnt v happy with going hk leh cos i had alot of stuff t complete over the weekend.. then cant possibly bring it all t hk mah, esp when the purpose of going there is t shop. where got time t do work!??! lol

tat someone ; nah.. not maid. i'll carry my shopping bags! then i can feel like a shopping queen and feel accomplished too! HAHA thats damn numbskull right ;x

al_cupon ; HELLO so long nv see you ard huh. glad t see ya on sat man.

the devil wears prada.

2006-09-15T19:03:00.000+08:00

caught the movie today with my lil ant. it was great! both the movie and my ant. ;p anne hathaway had so many pretty clothes t wear and she looked really good in them! ahhh but the fashion world is likdat i guess. so realistic and cruel and only the cunning and scheming wins.

and i bought a pair of shoes(yet again). spent my previous weekend in HK. didnt buy much stuff but still.. oh well. i need t learn how t speak canto.

my midterm break is coming! next next week! whoopee! and its just great t know that there wont be anymore presentations till after my midterm break! double yay! but i can just foresee many days used up for project meetings. sigh.. i hafnt stepped into town for ages, i wanna go shopping! and i wanna go sentosa too! and most imptly i need money lah. no money no talk man.

i need a pair of running shoes. ;(

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Set.K ; haha they are NOT love! lalalala. eh care t donate $ t me? HAHA.

qu|kZ ; lol okay i cant rmb what happened in the dream alr. but it wasnt smth pleasant i think. anyway congrats on becoming a true Singaporean now! ;p yay and someone's 22nd is coming soon huh. keke.

ruined week.

2006-09-04T14:56:00.000+08:00

i'm so sorry t be so negative but my communications management tutor has officially ruined my entire week. ON A MONDAY summore.

he totally sucks lah i've no idea whats wrong with him. he has smth against my fren and i and our group! hes damn biased and he criticised us like theres no tmr and c'mon lah i know we're not that bad alright. the others arent that good too okay so stop it. i mean i know who's seriously good with presentations and who's not. but hes praising the not-so-good ones too just cos he has some AFFINITY with them?!?!

my fren and i are just damn sway t have him as our tutor lah. and so damn sway that our grades will be given by someone like him. stupid fat ass.

and he happily piled homework on us and rearranged the order of syllabus so now my class isnt doing what the other classes are doing. he thinks hes damn smart t rearrange everything likdat -_- ARGH!! i'll be seeing him TWICE a week on mondays and thursdays! tt means my week will forever be ruined cos by seeing him on thursdays he'll just spoil my weekend!

oh hes an asshole. GRR.

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IZE ; haha i miss all of you. i realised that its been really long since i visited bfnut forums huh >< i shld make use of the spam thread t spam abt my tutor. hah.

qu|kZ ; hehe yup of cos! anyway do you know you appeared in one of my dreams.. haha. but i think you were angry with me in it ;(

Set.K ; erhhh.. you're way too young t suffer from arthritis lah. i think you shld drink more milk? and can i give you a rock candy stick instead? ;x

random thoughts.

2006-08-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling random, and so my post's gonna be extremely random.

my entire body's aching like hell. and i'm sunburnt. went swimming on fri.. and played floorball yesterday. i think i hafnt had vigorous exercise for too long.. even my butt's aching! and my toe is having internal bleeding now cos my shoes are lousy. gotta save up and get a pair of asics soon..

been trying t finish up my work on time, but slacker me is always distracted by the fridge and magazines. ;x sigh, time really flies.. its week 4 next week already! tt means projects are gonna start coming in. omg, the horror!

mmm suddenly have cravings for subway and new york pizza at harbourfront. and new york new york and country manna! oh man, where's my Eat Good Food Fund?? and i'll have t set up a shopping fund also.. so tt after my exams i'll have plenty of $ t shop! :D i wanna work~

hmm and theres a new club opening soon. St James Power Station. weird location, at harbourfront near the sentosa gateway. but apparently its really big and theres a place for everyone. theres a gallery and dancefloor and this mono section for ppl t chill out i guess.. not sure if its another version of MOS.

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Jain ; hey girlie i read your latest post. i just hate those kind of ppl man they damn kiampa. why mzy so nice ar?? seriously i'd love t stuff the ciggy butt into his fren's eye lah.. and give him SOAR eye. -_-

tat someone ; arhh dear my body's aching too! and i'm v scared my face will peel when i'm in sch.. then i'll look like some person with skin disease!! totally spoil image you know! ;(

Shox ; yo dude! how's you? so glad tt you still rmb me.. i thot everyone would've thot i'm dead since i hafnt logged into msn for a million yrs now

qu|kZ ; hehh.. oops. hmm i just met donald ytd on the train. he looks more healthy now. ;x hey what happened man, you can tell me abt it the next time i see you online if you want.. or drop me an sms if i seriously take v long t come online ;x meanwhile take care okay!

everlasting.

2006-08-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

i only have one thing t say: my lil ant is the cutest and bestest in the whole world! his baked beans diet is very cute. lolol ;p

okay, sophia is getting fat and flabby. so shes gonna start her exercise regime of running 3 times a week! and every fri she'll go swimming(read: suntanning). haha. now that i dropped my extremely taxing law module, ive got much more time t do my own stuff!

just stepped into town this afternoon. for a mere one and a half hour la. wanted t get a pair of nice earrings but ended up getting a bag charm and a pouch for my sister. i guess i gotta go bugis t find nice earstuds. town on a tuesday afternoon is seriously EMPTY compared t the weekends. and it was so damn hot today! i dont know if its due t what i'm wearing(black shirt) or is it the weather but the sun was shining oh-so-brightly. and when that happens it makes sophia an unhappy girl cos she hasnt got her tan yet! ;(

sigh. i sneaked away from my study t blog here.. i better get back t reading before someone scolds me. and that someone said he'll tag me but till now i hafnt seen any on my tagboard. hmmpf. ;X

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qu|kZ ; hehe thanks quikzie. things are better now.. :D hows the wcg coming along?

i dont wanna lose.

2006-08-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

ive been too busy lately. though sch just started, ive been trying t catch up with my schwork! thats cos the amount of readings is simply horrendous! esp for one particular module, one chapter of readings can easily be double the amount of that for any of my other modules. seriously, i wonder if ive made the right choice...

alright. i guess i gotta be disciplined t stick t the timetable ive set for myself. and focus focus FOCUS! -big sigh.

apart from these, there're alot of things on my mind too.. no thanks t my mom. fuck it man why cant she give me some time t myself?! here i am juggling with my work and other stuff, tryin not t neglect my family and social life, and there she is wasting my time with nonsensical stuff. whatever she wants t talk abt, cant she wait till i have spare time in my hands? is it THAT urgent that its importance takes precedence over my schoolwork?! shes determined t drive me nuts before the stress from sch does so! seriously, GIVE ME A BREAK!

grr. so fed up, but thats almost all i can say right now. t go into details is kinda against my interest, and i dont have time t do that either. i'll log into my msn soon okay, as soon as i get some time. i bet everyone on my list thinks i'm dead or smth :(

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lt ; haha today i was complaining abt it again! and this time my fren managed t pick up the smell.. oh great at least we're not the only ones! =p

Jain ; haha what wth and argh? wads up girl?

qu|kZ ; and whos that 'someone'? not me for sure! =p miss ya, i'll talk t you soon aights.

johnn ; i see.. ive been in that western most tip of singapore called boonlay. at times when i'm not there, i've been shutting myself up somewhere across your block of flats cos theres just too much work t do.. or maybe my level of efficiency has somehow went down over the hols.

happy birthday, singapore!

2006-08-09T13:35:00.000+08:00

okay, today's national day. not a very big deal for me, just that i get t have a day of rest from sch. hafnt been here for v long so i'm doing some quick updates today.

woke up with a swollen eye. WTH. that means i need more rest man. but i think ive got sufficient sleep alr so i dont know whats going on. -_-

the past 2 days in sch was fine, since everyone is still in holiday mood cos of the upcoming hol (which is today), and since we're all checking out the freshmen in sch. the 1987 girls are very pretty! hmm, spent a bomb on the bloody textbooks. and i had t lug it home all the way from BOON LAY. seriously i cant stop complaining abt how boonlay turns me off! its so HOT like that place has got no ventilation at all, and everytime i step down the bus at the interchange i smell this really WEIRD and overwhelming smell. and that smell seems t be permanently there. ARGH!

nevermind. i shall tahan for a few months first. i think i'm gonna be spending more time in sch man, since ive got so many frens staying in hall 2. and more time in sch means more time t accompany my lil ant! :D but someone's so busy with all his sports and other activities i wonder if theres time for me. hmm.. i wonder if theres even time for him t study. lol. nvm nvm, we'll work smth out.

okays, time t go get ready. my mom's bringing us out for high tea. but sigh, i'm not looking forward t it at all.. i just wanna spend time with you. :(

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johnn ; thanks.. erh how did you find out abt my blog huh?

guangwei ; haha okay! but sch started for me alr.. and i also seldom use the comp now.. i'll try t update often ok. you must take care! :D

Jain ; hehe jainjain work hard too! it was great seeing ya on sat. you look prettier than ever~ -mwaks.

say goodbye.

2006-08-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

all good things must come t an end eventually. SIGH. my 3 months of uni holidays are gonna end this week! i'll have t say goodbye t my slacker life and from next week onwards its HELLO PROJECTS, HELLO READINGS, HELLO MUGGING! like seriously. cause next year my 3 months will be taken up by professional attachment. ;( which means no more long hols until i grad! pfft.

after 2months plus of not visiting my sch website, i logged into my email and online organiser and what greeted me was seriously unpleasant. there're like a thousand and one things t be printed in first week of sch, a writing pre-test assignment, and READINGS t be done. i dread going for one particular module; no one i know is taking it with me and the course outline is seriously intimidating. theres a term paper tt i have t write and its 15% of my final grade, and i gotta present that term paper and defend my findings. AND all of this is individual work! which means i have t do it alone and absorb my classmates' shootings alone! TEH HORROR.

God please help me survive this semester..

i must learn t love the course. so tt life will be easier for me. GAHHH! this fri i'm going t print my notes and buy whatever text i need and start mugging. the beginning of a sad life ;(

SIGH.

oh btw everyone, please support my online earring website! and help spread the word~ ;D

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Jain ; haha, i think he dont dare t call me or talk t me anymore. i had t call up the agency and talk t another woman.. but shes nice and efficient so tts gd ;p

Hyo ; o.O trade wad? ;x

guangwei ; where got! ok lor.. but gw must visit auntie's blog ok, so even if we nv talk often you also can be updated abt my life.. haha. gw go get a blog laaa ;x

shopaholic strikes again.

2006-07-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

ok this is not some new book by sophie kinsella. its abt ME and how much i spent the past few weeks. its alot man, i spent a grand total of nearly 200 bux. and thats only in 2 weeks! THATS ALOT. no wonder my bank account balance is decreasing like mad. -_-

i dont dare t calculate my total expenditure for this hols. actually, i cant really remember too cos i threw away most of the receipts. but i'm damn sure its gonna reach abt 1k. -faints. but nvm, i got myself really pretty accessories and clothes so its not that bad :D

yea so miss sophia toh is very broke now. shes gonna walk instead of taking bus, eat bread 3 meals a day. haha kidding. but i cant splurge anymore la ;( and my agency is being very irritating. stupid new guy took over my consultant and think he can bully me. they gave me the wrong amount for my pay and yet still dare t tell me that i cant get OT pay unless i work more than 8 hours tt day. like hello?! its my 3rd time working with microsoft already and the previous 2 times i got my OT pay despite working only 6 hours, so why shld it be any different this time round?! the next time i go t them i will demand for a change in consultant man. this guy is fucking useless! you've got so much more t learn, BOY.

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evangeline ; ive got no butt. but i know youve got a PERKY BUTT! heheeh! ;x

Hyo ; then you can have husky voice then. i want back my voice! ;(

liting ; yes liting i go t the gym.. but it doesnt seem t have any effect on me leh! i think i need t run t get my abs out! GRR ><

Jain ; hahah i think sunday more ah nehs! ;x but anyway poor me didnt get a tan on sat cos it was too cloudy.. sob.

guangwei ; YES! wad have you been doing huh! too busy with gf and sch until nv talk t auntie ;(

muted.

2006-07-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

you know why the title's likdat? cos i just LOST MY VOICE. like totally, completely. so for the whole of today i was whispering and trying t get some sound out of my mouth.. to no avail, of course. -_-

so sad. i wont be able t sing in the shower anymore. woops, that was supposed t be a secret. haha ;x

my voice was fine when i was out with nana ytd; though it started t get more husky and 'sexy' as time passed. but argh! little did i know i'd wake up not being able t say ANYTHING. and when ppl call my hp i cant even say HELLO. like, how sad is that?! -boohoohoo.

anyway shopping was fun. i got a bag and a belt as well as a really cute piece of undergarment. nana was having a gd time laughing at my choice of undergarment laa. bish! ;x we wanted t get tops la, but at the end of the day we bought so many other things except tops. okay tt means we gotta make another trip t town soon. when my voice comes back that is. :D

i'm gonna drown myself in litres of honey and lo han guo and eat up the entire pi pa gao bottle. i'm so determined t get well by fri cos i wan t go gym! and sentosa on sat too! grr. God please help me~

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Hyo ; omg so long. i think ppl already give up going back t your blog t check for updates liao lol.

Jain ; blur sotong sophia forgot t bring her digicam out tt day.. ;x she was in a hurry and forgot t do alot of other things too, like spray on her perfume. ahah

al_cupon ; haha.. yes! arent you glad for meeee :D

with you by my side.

2006-07-17T12:05:00.000+08:00

okay guys, sorry for not blogging lately. was workin the past few days. roadshow promoting la, stand until my legs so tired, they're practically gone la! somemore ytd was a long day, stand for over 12 hours. i could've crawled home already man -_-

tried carls jr for the first time last night. haha, ya ya i'm slow okay. shared a burger with rolyn :P but its still v filling! yum yum.

speaking of food, i'm so happy i'm going back t sn t eat tmr with serena and lye! think orange bowl, curry chicken noodles, fried rice, sliced fish bee hoon! -drools. and after that we're going town for shopping! haa i've already come up with my list of items t buy. hopefully i dont overspend.. ;x

i havent been catching up with many of my friends recently.. and i feel bad abt it. like i was telling rolyn, i feel as if my social circle is shrinking. its time t pay more attention t my friends ard me.. hehe. so for the remaining weeks of my holiday i shall meet up with as many friends as possible. and let them have a look at my short hair. HA.

hmm, i wonder if any of you has encountered this weird thing abt msn. recently ive been getting alerts saying so-and-so wants t add me t msn, and so i accepted. their nicks are all in chinese and they're never online. just now i got another of this and i suspect they're bots cos they have really weird emails. and i dont know wth is going on man. -shrugs.

oh oh oh! and theres smth i wanna shareeeee! maybe i'm slow, but i just realised palawan beach has completed their renovations and the place is freaking nice now! it looks like a chalet! i went at night so i'm not sure how the place looks like in the day, but the lights and all made it really beautiful at night. its so resort-like and very relaxing, you just wanna spend your entire night there. and the two viewing towers across the bridge at palawan is just perfect for star-gazing! so all of you attached ppl out there, bring your bf/gf there t stargaze! you can see plenty of stars(like REAL PLENTY), its close t the sea so its really windy, together with the soft lights and some spanish music coming from a bar at palawan, woohoo! makes everything so romantic man. guarantee plus chop! hehe and theres food court there too! but i think the shore of the beach has shrunk cos they kinda pushed the spaces for restaurants forward. dont know how ppl are gonna tan there lol. but nvm, doesnt bother me since i go siloso t tan ;p

ok i'm gonna brainstorm for my shopping list alr. and i miss my lil ant! hes so sweet t pass me cough drops when i was working.. -flutters in delight. gonna visit him at work tmr. YAY! i'll update soon, toodles~

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evangeline ; YOU? anorexic?? oh please! haha you're not laa. but anyway you've recovered already so tt just shows you're thinking too much. :D

Hyo ; errrhhh haha my reply kinda late huh. yea gd thing italy won. i would've gone bonkers if france won. haha good job zidane.

Nicholas ; helloo! twas great t bump into you at sentosa the other day.. haha.

Jain ; no lar jainjain prettier lehh. ;D ok tmr when i go out i shall bring digicam.. then take pic liao send you ok? mwaks! cheer up okay darling, sophie loves you~

every moment spent with you.

2006-07-05T22:13:00.000+08:00

i only had 3 hours of sleep last night. why? cos i was watching the ger vs italy semifinals. and italy won! woohoo! not a supporter of italy but i'm just glad germany is out because they kicked out my argentina. grrr.

anyway, i overslept this morning. was supposed t wake up at six thirty t doll up and prepare so i can meet lil ant at eight, i woke up at seven twenty when he called me! sheesh, if he didnt call me i would still be in lala-land till eight laa. so i was in a mad rush, putting on my makeup in the car etc but luckily i wasnt that late in the end. phew.

so everything was going on smoothly.. after some housekeeping stuff t settle in ntu, we went t town for a movie, then for my haircut. YES! i got a haircut. or shld i say i got my hair butchered. its superduper short now! lil ant says its nice.. but i dont know how my hair will turn out after i wash it, cos the guy styled my hair a little and i havent washed it off yet ;x so i shall let you guys know tmr after i wash my hair. smth tells me i'll look like a lion -.-

aiihhh i need t learn t take care of my hair man. no more being a lazy bum and not putting on conditioner regularly, not blowing dry my hair in the desired style and not spraying leave-on treatment. why am i not blessed with straight, unfrizzy hair?! ;(

today's gotta be the longest time we spent tog outside man. but i'm not complaining :P sometimes i feel like i know you, other times i feel i dont. i guess i've only uncovered the top-most layer; there're still many more t go. i'm mildly disturbed by certain things you do, but i hope i'll understand the reasons behind them in time t come.
or maybe i just need a change of mindset, heh.

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Nicholas ; oh well, that makes sense. haha! ookays its soph.ixticated@gmail.com

Hyo ; rubbish. portugal will win laa. :D

Jain ; hehe i cut my hair~ v short now~

evangeline ; alright.. bump so much ah. i'm quite sure you're covered with bruises already. HEHEE ;x

liting ; ooohhh lol i went t cut hair and watch movie today! hehe. heyy i wan t go back SN eat! come with lye and me soon ok! :D

disappointment.

2006-07-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

brazil got eliminated by france! OMG. damn the french.

curse the germans too, they dashed the dreams of argentina ;( oh well i guess there's still portugal.. go go go! i'm rooting for you! ahaha xD

hmms i'm gonna change my blogskin.. as soon as i get some inspiration and finish doing the template..

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Jain ; -blush. wad was that for?! hahaha ant lor.. ma yi. ;P

Nicholas ; yes you did! haha you got home at 5.45am!?!??! luckily i didnt take your car.. my mom would've killed me ahhahah ;x

dullsville.

2006-06-30T04:22:00.000+08:00

my life's so boring! I NEED A JOB!

okay my comp is sort of up now, after 4 tiring hours of reformatting and installing everything. yet not everything is up. some drivers were not installed yet cos they caused hiccups during the first time round(thats why it took 4 bloody hours). so i better grab the chance t hurry blog before i attempt t install them. heh..

i'm nearly bored to death man, if not for my lil ant.. who spends almost all his free time with me >< sorry for depriving you of so much sleep. hehe are you reading this now? :P

aiyo and stella is sick now.. poor girl, gotta give her lots of TLC. alright busy but boring weekend ahead. i know it sounds contradicting.. but thats exactly what its gonna be. GAHH! only the world cup matches t look forward t.. and hearing your voice over the phone. seriously, i need a life..

oh yes, and i need a haircut too.

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IZE ; TEH HORROR! hahaa. when i feel like playing q4 lor.. and then gotta wipe off that thick layer of dust on the disc too ;x

al_cupon ; oh hey thats what i did too! IT SUCKS. gahh.

Jain ; haha.. np la dear girl. you must take care too yea! lovelove~

rainbow connection.

2006-06-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

alrights hello people. ive an announcement t make.

SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING! MY COMPUTER HAPPILY CONKED OUT ON ME! oh well i think its been hacked la. i'm currently at a lanshop.. but i'll update really soon ok? sorry t let you guys read a stagnant blog. ;x

well. i hafnt been suntanning.. the weather refuses t cooperate with me! hmmpf. if i dont get anymore sunlight i'll turn into a fungus already. ;(

goodness me, june's coming t an end soon!! this is bad news. sigh.. okay peeps this is gonna be a short post.. just t let you guys know i'm not dead yet ;P love yall! take care darlings~

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Jain ; yes darling.. thats cos my comp's hacked i think.. i'll be online with you really soon ok! shopping/sentosa/kbox soon!! and i'll visit your blog asap :D

Gerr ; hehe i hope everything'll turn out really well.. hehe.. miss ya girl!

al_cupon ; haha hello stranger! ;p hows things going?

lye ; yes honey, it passed. but being the sweet-natured and forgiving girl i am, i shall forgive ya! HAHA. ;x its okay la lye we'll meet up another day! but you gotta promise me you'll tk care ok? lovelove!

wrecked.

2006-06-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

my week's wrecked! sigh. didnt get t start work this week cos the company i was supposed t work for has problems.. so they wouldnt be able t start the proj this week. and the coordinator told us he'll "inform us when our services is needed". so what does that mean? are they gonna ever start the damned project?? grrr.

i'm not doing so many things lately. like making new earrings and playing the piano. i'm just rotting ard at home laaa. that's so unhealthy and so NOT meaningful. pfft.

wanted t go sentosa on wed but due t unforeseen circumstances, that didnt happen. but i went shopping with rolyn! haha i love her so muchh. -BEAMS. bernard joined us a little later and we had dinner at billy bombers. supposed t be "in a rush" but we ended up sitting there for quite long.. haha. hmms, if only you were there..

i hope i'm doing things that bring a smile t you in the midst of the unhappiness you're facing. :)

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Jain ; hehe of cos! with my jainjain ard, how can i ever stay unhappy for long? ;p thx for listening that night love.

SET.K ; ahhh. thank you my dearrrrr sister! hehe. that last line was kinda random.. ho-hum. haha pls stay clownish!! :DD

lye ; hello lyelyeeee~ wont your bf mind you clubbing?? yup i moved on so tt you wont be flooded with my emo-ness.. cant wait t see you this sat! miss ya loads ^^

sunshine after the rain.

2006-06-10T15:05:00.000+08:00

:) that's you.

i'm so glad so relieved that everything's fine now. was living in fear for a day and a night and it was tormenting. ;(

sigh. didnt get a gd sleep the day before. slept in the wee hours of the morning and woke up 4 hours later. stoned awhile, watched the rain fall heavily and feeling my tears fall the same way, hoping t go running in the rain.

then your msg came in, "hope you're not out there in the rain..."
but how could i not? the rain's where i seek solace.. it washes away my troubles; it embraces me, making me feel so safe in its arms. most importantly, the rain hides the tears that fall from my eyes..

but anyway. i settled some ntu stuff, then i went for a movie with gerald. thought that it was better for me t go out for a breather instead of cooping myself up at home. Cars was not v interesting at first, but as the show played on, i realise theres alot of meaning in the show. like, as people fight among each other for power t win the ratrace, they forget the most important thing in life.. which is t be happy. and most of the time, winning some so-called important competitions earns you the trophy; it is nothing but an empty trophy. its what you learn during the process that makes you a real winner. heh. its a cartoon worth watching. ;)

hmms. didnt hear from you for the rest of the day.. until 1130. and everything was okay after that. :)

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IZE ; no leh.. i where got chiongster. i only go when i think the music and company will be great ;p

qu|kZ ; hehe. and i was broken into measly pieces too ;(

Hyo ; haha oh i see.. sorry la i'm not well versed in japanese ;p

Jain ; wah ahha yes man i hafnt been t zouk for v long.. but i dont like mambo! HEHE ;x

so much t say.

2006-06-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps i hafnt been blogging the past week. quite alot of stuff happened and i spent quite alot of time thinking too.. as well as spending alot of time with the piano.

okay i'm watching sesame street now. my all-time fav! AHHA.

was talking t ming few days back; hes in maldives! HOW LUCKY! he swam with manta rays and sea turtles! so cool.. and the scenery of maldives from above is just so picturesque! that just uncovered a hidden dream of mine..

t visit cayman islands and maybe live there for the rest of my life even.. spend my life working there like sam in 'into the blue'.. how carefree would that be! and i'll be under the sun for as long as i likee..!

yea. and go snorkelling or learn diving.. then go tioman or redang or wherever t bask in the sun.. swim in the cool waters.. alright i'm digressing alot here. so sorry. ;x

just being random.. i wanna go clubbing again. the experience at VAUNT was horrifying! it was like a stampede, the dancefloor was so packed everyone was practically MARCHING ON THE SPOT. and rubbing sweaty backs against each other and happily stamping on each others feet. GAWD. totally NOT enjoyable. -.- yes, i wanna go clubbing proper. :D

one last note. i miss all my frens ;p

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Jain ; naw.. jain's sweeter. keke sorry darling ive been neglecting you these days :(

qu|kZ ; aww.. lemme piece back the broken pieces then ;x

Hyo ; erm.. i dont understand wor.. haha..

a little respect.

2006-05-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

playing the song over and over again, for no reason. i'm just stoning away like nobody's business. and i'm not making sense in whatever i'm saying.

ive no idea whats wrong with me today. since two nights ago ive been feeling frustrated.. and this morning i woke up feeling frustrated again. frustration wore off and soon i started t feel weird. this is so horrid; the bloody mood swings. it wasnt until 9plus then i started t cheer up a little.. thanks t you..

i'm seriously unsure of what's going on right now. unsure of whatever i'm feeling. yet i choose not t acknowledge whatever feelings i think i'm sure of having. :/ i should give it some time..

on a lighter note, i met bernard cedric and some of the safsa db ppl while i was going t buy food. i must've looked like a wreck man, after running in the rain and being in shabby home clothes ;x running in the rain was fun though.. if only i could do it without getting sick. it'll help wash off some thoughts of mine..

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Jain ; haha you're such a darling! -mwaks. i love you~

rawr.

2006-05-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

watched da vinci code today. wasnt too bad, but i felt the book was better. more details mah. heh.

so happy tt ppl tell me i'm tanned now.. well thats cos i just went sentosa ytd! HAA. and i'm going gym tmr too. gotta tone up my flabby bodyy. v happy t meetup with rolyn for sentosa ytd; missed her so much! and it seems like alot of couples around me are having troubles with their relationship/breaking up recently. what is this, breaking-up season? ;(

oh well.

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Hyo ; its ok la mothers' day only comes once a year leh. lol

Jain ; hehe you too! i felt i was looking quite sui bian today. lolol ;x

liting ; ya gonna sell earrings.. as a hobby i guess. :D yea i get my beads from chinatown and far east. eee omg how can summer breeze hang out with samuel laaa. not worthy man. ;x and so glad lucify got back in! this time they WONT lose t summer breeze. pooey. haha btw results coming out first week of june.. so probably during that week you check once every few days lor. hehe.. dont worry you'll do fine!

you've had a bad day.

2006-05-21T02:33:00.000+08:00

yea ive had a bad day. in fact its 2 bad days already. gahh!

but nvm. shall blog about something happier. like my earrings!! ive been doing earrings for the past few weeks.. coming up with new designs etc. and learning how t take decent pics of them. HAA. will be putting them up on the website, but the site's under construction now too. when everything's done i'll post a link up here for all t go seee! AND PLS SUPPORT ALRIGHTS? ;D

gonna be busy with meet-ups the next few weeks. meeting up with the hc frens, ex-colleagues, yq raf etc. oh yea, results are gonna come out soon too. oh man God bless me.

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Jain ; hehe i miss ya too girl! i hope you're feeling better alr okay. dont forget that i'm always here for you! -hugs.

qu|kZ ; awww. i mishh quikzie too. haha we'll meet up soon alrights, you busy busy man. haha.

Hyo ; i see.. i didnt know crystal jade had such weird traditions. lol

i'm back!

2006-05-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

yuppp my monitor was spoilt for awhile so i couldnt blog until today. ;DD

so i spent the past few days reading my bimbo book. and suntanning and umm, visiting town. yea. hah. theres actually nothing much t blog abt!

okay theres one. i just thought of it. theres this very lousy group in 'superband' thats still in for some unknown reason. they seriously suck and dont deserve t have their performance aired lor. but well, we'll see la. hopefully on the week of wild card they'll get out. and it'll be good riddance. hahaaha evil me. ;x

alrights going back t my book already.

ps. i got my birks from lye already! ;DD

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al_cupon ; oic.. okay. until now i hafnt visit yet cos i just got my monitor back. ^^

junxian ; haha i duno if you'll read this.. but mommy misses you too! when are we going out huh! ;p

Jain ; i love youuuu girlfriend! so sweet of you t gimme long-D tag. ;D hope you're enjoying urself greatly in hk! -mwaks.

Hyo ; but crystal jade is delicious! esp their xiaolongbao. how can it not be filling. lol

wilfred ; booo! and wormie has been pwned too. LALALA

semi charmed life.

2006-05-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

it was great meeting up with charb and bernard! lol. hafnt seen charb for quite awhile and he lost alot of weight lehh. seriously its time t meet up with my hc friends alr. ppl like david wu and peicheng etc etc.

yup, crystal jade was heavenly.. as usual. haha.. actually dinnering with frens is damn fun. gotta do it more often ;D

alrights. ive got a series of activities planned out for the next few weeks so hopefully nothing'll get screwed up. heh. poseidon tmr with my sis! woohoo!

i seem t be more lost than ever..

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al_cupon ; haha wad you mean? eh why you removed the tagboard from ur blog?

JAIN ; hehe i'll be happy with jain in my life! HAHA ;x okay i promise you i'll try t be happy

Hyo ; and i'm not..? hmms. haha okay thanks for the compliment ^^

wilfred ; i'm bubbling! LOL. visit my blog more often la youu.

Bernard ; ehh someone type out his name huhh. ahhaha when shall we go kbox?! ;x

what lies beneath.

2006-05-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

i had two weird dreams yesterday. one during my nap, the other at night. and its such dreams that i hate. dreams that disrupt my life; dreams that remind me of what i'm trying so hard t hide and forget.

everyone sees me as a person smiling always, but who knows who i really am under this facade? who knows how i really feel?

you. you say no one understands you; that no one can even imagine how its like t go through the pain and hurt you went through. but you never did let anyone understand. you didnt give anyone a chance t try t understand, did you?
you say your family doesnt love you. from what i see, they do. at the very least, i can tell that your mom loves you dearly. but you refuse t acknowledge it. you keep twisting her kind intentions into something else.

you do not have the right t grumble, because everything you do you only think for yourself! how do you want people t understand you if you dont let them? we can only see as much as what others want us t see. is there a time you put yourself into their shoes and think how they feel?

you insist that your views are right. i repeat one last time: I WASNT OUT T CHANGE YOU. believe it or not, its the truth. but you didnt give me a chance t explain, did you? no one likes being accused of something he didnt do, so what made you think that i enjoyed that, huh? you think you've tried t see things from my point of view, but the fact is you didnt. theres no point denying, you know it very well.

i know you wont read these, and even if you do, as usual you wouldnt care. but i have t let everything out, so i dont care either. but i know if you continue t live in your own world, you're on the right path t self-destruction.

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IZE ; no worries, i know ;)

Hyo ; nope that wasnt me. i hafnt stepped into tampines for damn long. in fact i dont go there since its so damn far away.

JAIN ; hehe thanks. you're leaving for hk soon. ;( meet up after you're back alrights? i'll miss ya. enjoyy!

sick.

2006-05-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

yes i'm sick. boohoohoo! having a cold and coughing like nobodys business ;(

sighh. this means i cant go sentosa if not it'll get worse. but i wanna go for a tan! -pouts.

theres nothing much going on in my life right now. other than having this 3 day job with microsoft. first day at work ytd and i spent the whole day STANDING doing filing, binding and shredding! i'm sure i've become the most pro shredder in the world already. there was so much t shred that i had t ask the cleaning auntie t change the bin 3 times!! 3 black garbage bags full of shredded documents! -faints.
but then. microsoft has a damn big pantry its almost like a mini cafe. wow.

nelson is insisting that i watch 'the wild' with him. grr. but i dowan! see how la huh. no inflow yet but $ keeps flowing out. hai. nvm theres mi3 this sat and poseidon next week! yay! :))

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liting ; haa by the time you read this your exams would be over alr. keke. yea gotta enjoy the hols since this is the only 3mth hol we'll get in our entire uni life. but i'm sick now! ;((

IZE ; lol theres mi3 this sat ma. hopefully i get well by then. -sobs.

JAIN ; hehe glad you did. i had a great time too! but then i had sore throat the next day. haha must be forgot t eat my pi pa gao sweet. ;x

freedom.

2006-04-27T14:03:00.000+08:00

yeaahhh exams are over! just got back from the library with 4 bimbotic books ;DD

went shopping ytd. omg my cash reserves are depleting damn fast. but anyways i still wanna shop. HA. cant wait t go kbox with jain and co tmr! ^^

no job for me yet.. sob. but theres this 3day job for me while i wait for a longer term one. so well, at least got some money coming in.

i'm free at last! so ppl, QUICK DATE ME OUT! HAHAHA. ;x

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wanderFOOL ; dot dot. my sister is so lame =x

Gerr ; haha tyty!! its over liao! over overrr~ wheeeee can meet my darling gerger le ;p

JAIN ; haha then we shall go kbox together lo~ kaka.. i wanna pierce ear also =x

al_cupon ; haha.. ya ok! wait more. haha i duno when i'm going t dye it also. must wait till i get my job.. later ppl dont dare t hire me. xD

adrenaline rush.

2006-04-22T04:15:00.000+08:00

woohoo! 3 papers down, 2 more t go. ive been slacking ever since FM ended on thurs. ;x

hmms. i was told that someone had copied my blog. ;(
this is so.. SADDENING. dont know whether t be happy or sad laa. but anyway i'll be changing my blog layout soon too. so i guess she can have this design all she wants. :/

spent my entire day coming up with designs.. tiring man. ahh i'll do more after the exams. must start studying already even if its an open-book exam.

EVERYONE! must take care okay i'll see all of you real soon! -HUGS.

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Gerr ; ahha sure thingg, i'll be calling you soon! hahas. miss ya loads i cant wait t see you again!

B ; hoii. revive your blog laa. haha. yup of cos jain's a cool name. jain's a cool girl! ;p

al_cupon ; hahas. you v long nv come my blog le hor. yup after i dye my hair then you can see liao lo

Hyo ; why you so late hafnt sleep one?

JAIN ; how come you nv go for touch-ups? hehe nvm lar blonde isnt that bad too right.. ;x

what a good friday.

2006-04-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

so tired from mugging. its friday; 3 more days t aa101 exam! -gasps.

nothing much happening t me these days.. except that i found out how harmful watching tv excessively can be. in 3 days of watching 7pm,9pm and 11pm shows on ch8, ive encountered 2 rape scenes, countless violent scenes ranging from claiming t have chopped off ppl's hands and hammering someone's toes. not t mention scenes where ppl were shot; they appear almost every 5min.

its kinda weird why i'm blogging abt such stuff right. i think its due t the elective i'm taking in sch. analysing media effects is one of the activities we do. HAH.

okay enuff of studies. i'm going t dye my hair purple after my exams. and get my eartop piercing. oh whee!

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JAIN ; i wanna go clubbing too! lets go together after my exams ok! we've so many places t go tgt. hahaha ;P

liting ; haha okay i'll pay more attention t SOUL coming mon and try t spot renfred's brother. the mi lu bing's vocalist(the one in specs) has this look that just grows on you. hahah~

Gerr ; YES!! maybe we could go for kbox with jainjain ;D

dellyybellyy ; no worries. haha anyway i dont like renfred.. why you ask me t vote for SOUL "cos renfred asks t do so"? lolz and i duneed his email lar ive nothing t say t him anyway. ;x i'll be fine dear.. just give me a week or so. i'll be perfectly fine after my exams are over ^^

sinner.

2006-04-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

ahhh what a nice break from studies(though i hafnt done much of it ;x). went t town, chill a little.

oh oh oh guess who i saw?! RENFRED! alright pls dont mistake that as excitement. i do not like him. haha.
yea i was waiting for my fren outside cine's cheers when i saw a white bmw pull up t the "taxi stand". out of curiousity, i lookd into the car t see who's inside.. cos it looks very occupied. then someone opened the door and tada~ it was renfred! and after stepping out of the car he had t POSE for one sec?!?! sheesh. then this 4 female frens of his waved frantically t him before joining him and they happily paraded into cineleisure. oh my god. talk abt funny people.

today shld be my most expensive day out in town. i had tcc for lunch for the first time in my life. yea 25bux lunch! chor. but thanks B for the treat! ahha next time my turn t treat okay. ;D
then i bought a pair of levis lady style jeans. the pair i was eyeing for damn long. and THEN, i went isetan and got my guess wallet. woohoo! fancy spending nearly 300 in just a matter of hours! thank goodness this is done only once in a decade. ohhh i have sinned..

yaa. i shld be happy after everything. but i feel so guilty cos i still have 11 chapters of mkting waiting for me at home! and FM textbook and accounting textbook. wahhhhhh i'm gonna drown in them man. hardcore mugging starting from tmr!

then hardcore slacking starting from 26april, 1130am.

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JAIN ; hehe yup we'll both study hard! btw what were you doing so late into the night/early morning?

i wont look back.

2006-04-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

yes i'll prove it t you. i wont look back. i offered my friendship t you; take it or leave it.

theres just too much t do, too little time. i'm still swimming thru 12 chapters of marketing. exams 17april. merry christmas happy new yr t me man.

but, i will survive.

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liting ; heyys gdluck for ur papers! ;D you can now mug t ur heart's delight since thurs is over already. haha

JAIN ; awww. hehe nvm lar its only on april fools that you fooled her. =p

B ; lol. thanks dude ;D

Gerr ; ahha.. -sayangs. ya lor after my exams we meet up ok! i got 3 mths hol woohoo!

punk'd.

2006-04-01T02:01:00.001+08:00

its APRIL FOOLS' today. hahhh. nearly got faked, faked a few people. whee ;p and quikzie's the best prankster ever.

the past week was hectic. rushing thru readings and studying for tests and doing proj. bahh. at least its all over now and i just gotta mug for the exams. lalala.

i wish it would stop raining on days when i'm free, so that i can go t sentosa for my tan. haa. i think i'm damn random today whats wrong with me. -_-"

i did something evil 3 days ago. i hope you understand...

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al_cupon ; lol even if i didnt say out my dream, it wouldnt come true also. duno whether its a gd or bad thing. haa.

JAIN ; awww. hehe mwaks! ;p

lye ; arhh why do you think so? lol i dont find myself weida leh.. i didnt do any weida stuff recently other than blood donation =x

speechless.

2006-03-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

i had a damn weird dream last night. and so i woke up feeling a little odd. then i went t sch feeling chirpy. during stats tutorial i was feeling sleepy.. but still chirpy. all the way until.. i got home. suddenly i was like v irritable. and in a damn bad mood.
and until now i'm damn dulan and i feel like punching the wall. extreme moodswing huh.

went town t study tday. quite efficient i think. so i rewarded myself by buying a striped top. i think i'm getting stripey these days.. this is my second striped top alr. and i'm using my bank reserves like damn often nowadays too. time t CURB spending.

yes i said i'll leave the past behind and start my life anew. but.. i just cant help but wonder, how are you? please stay happy alright?

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Kai ; yaaaaa man sweep his face. haha. i think its a dead knot, can never untie. but i'll just leave it aside first..

JAIN ; hey lovely! i miss ya loads~

lye ; heh.. thanks dearie. i'll try.. i gotta psyche myself up. lol..

Evan3x ; haii. but i just love looking back. i think i'm someone who takes it badly when things go wrong.. and i'll just keep wondering how did that happen.. lol.

IZE ; haa. okay la you shall rocket me then. lolol.

just take my life away.

2006-03-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

today's a really fucked up day.
first its my accounting test. its making me so depressed.
then this idiot roadsweeper kept sweeping my leg when i was at the bus stop. he didnt even have the decency t say EXCUSE ME. and i'm quite sure he isnt mute. -.-

i'm so sick of everything. i'm even sick of ranting. theres just no point in baring my heart t all since it has no effect on the way things are now.

i may not be blogging often cos i'm gonna be busy with school the next few weeks.. meanwhile, take care my friends! :)

>>

Hyo ; theres only so much i can do. and theres a limit t that method cos that knot in my heart has t be untied for me t be free.

IZE ; okay, shoot me first before you shoot yourself aights? =p

girl, move on.

2006-03-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

this is really terrible. my mind has come up with a thousand and one reasons t get over him; everything is pointing t the fact that hes NOT WORTH IT, that nothing will ever bring him back and that its impossible between the both of us. every single reason is so damn convincing and undeniable.

yet, my heart refuses t acknowledge all of this. no matter how convincing the reasons are, my heart just shuts them out.

WHY?! my mind's doing everything it can t get me outta this mess; my heart's pushing me further down into the abyss of pain. and sadly, my mind usually yields t my heart. i feel like my mind's the angel and my heart's the devil. oh fuck this.

-

one more thing, i just cant understand why do such people exist in this world. people who blindly do something and insist that they're following their principles. c'mon man you mean your principle is t ignore the feelings of others? t do something and feel good about it at the expense of others? and t encourage your friend t continue being fucked up?
and then there are people who dont think with their brains. sigh. you can never understand what goes on in their minds. its these people who make living in this world so fucking depressing.

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JAIN ; heya darling! hehe ive updated! ;D yaa that day i went but also not v sunny. we shld go together! after our exams.. haha miss ya so much!

Hyo ; lol its easier said than done.

IZE ; sigh. love is such an evil thing. its only beautiful because its evil. ;(

forever.

2006-03-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

you'll be in my heart.
forever by damage is for you..

edwin, i totally agree with what you said. but sometimes what if that person isnt there? you've gotta find other ways t take away your pain. yes it'll be best if the one who inflicts the pain takes it away but i think alternative methods would work just as well =p

suntanned tday. went t collect my phone and walked around marina sq too. hah. thanks gerald for walking so much with me though your legs are like super duper tired. :D

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al_cupon ; you too :)) take the initiative t find an alternative t take away ur pain ba. like bf2? HAHA.

qu|kZ ; yayyy. ive got another nannyy ;x

this game of love.

2006-03-06T15:57:00.000+08:00

first things first. today's my sister's birthday! :)) happy birthday stella!! may all ur wishes come true, esp your dream t enter lasalle fashion ;D
oh btw my phone's repaired.

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i cant believe i cried for you again. this is going t be the LAST time i'm shedding tears for you.

every game has their rules. in this game of love, know the rules well and know them by heart. play by the rules and girl, you'll never be hurt again.

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al_cupon ; lol yea. i'm trying not t exude so much pain from my blog liao later ppl dowan t read my blog =x

qu|kZ ; okay, i'm trying t live with it now. lol

Gerr ; lol my mind tells me hes not worth it but my heart seems t feel otherwise. hah. but anyway i'm trying t move on alr.

IZE ; thank you.. your friendship is enough for me =p as for the guy.. dont need la. not ready for another r/s yet. lolol

dellyybellyy ; triangle-shaped fringes? haha i'm not sure i'm picturing correctly what you're trying t tell me =x anyways. nothing will bring him back t me. so its no use trying.

untitled.

2006-02-28T19:19:00.000+08:00

you were my world, you meant everything t me.
you said i was your world too, yet you flung me into this darkness and left me alone t fend for myself.

everything was so cold and unfamiliar in the beginning. but as time passed, i got used t it. even the pain and loneliness that cut me so deeply, i got used t that too.

sometimes i see something flickering in the distance; whats that? has someone come t bring me light?
but no, its just an illusion.

i'm tired of being left t hang up high on a thin, breakable thread. i'm tired of waiting for light.

missing you.

2006-02-28T08:41:00.000+08:00

yea, i'm still missing you. even after so long, i still think about you. but i really dont dare t think further; i dowanna slip into depression. people tell me you're not worth it, but thoughts of you just fill my mind. i cant help it. can you understand how i feel? will you ever understand?

i cant move on, if i cant let go of this.

my ear's swollen. not that it has any link t what i said above. its just red and puffy. okay i swear i wont eat anymore prawns. and no prawns after piercing my ears too. heh.

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qu|kZ ; ((: i'm up early tday~

dellyybellyy ; nahh. i think i shld leave my fringe long this time. lol. but good thing is the hairdresser cut away my dyed hair so now my entire head is black. yay!

IZE ; teehee you tagged! ;P

jx ; lol then you also. cos you my erzi. haha must live together with mommy one.

waiting for her prince charming.

2006-02-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

one week has passed just likdat. my hols are over now and ive got a few presentations this week t settle. and i hafnt prepared my scripts yet!! -panics.
just got a haircut tday. ive cut my fringe. and my sis says i look like a china woman! the horror!!
next week when my big projs are over i can finally start t catch up with my tutorials. i'm lagging behind so damn badly. and i thought i could use this one week break t catch up. -.-"
oh well. ive been visiting town whenever i'm free but i always end up not buying anything. what has happened t me?!?! i wanna buy something! =x

>>

junxiann ; lol i live in mount everest. =x

JAIN ; hey jainjain. haha why you say i'm damn tough? =p

CoMC ; lol why you sighh. only i can sigh ok. HAHA.

Hyo ; i'll try la. but it aint easy. heh..

she's dead.

2006-02-20T04:23:00.000+08:00

say goodbye t me, for tomorrow and in future it'll be someone else you know.

disappointment.

2006-02-19T00:19:00.000+08:00

i dont know when you're speaking the truth, i dont know what's real from you. i want t believe that you meant whatever you've said in the past but i'm having my doubts. so ive decided from now on, i'll never believe anything you say ever again. you fucking liar.

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Alonso ; ok hope you had a good vday.

junxiann ; erzi. kan kai yi dian ok? everytime see your nick likdat i also :( leh.

nikonll ; someone v busy recently ahh. lol. if only i could eat vday. then it'll never appear again.

qu|kZ ; -waves. yayy quikzie lets movie soon!

Gerr ; lol darling.. hope your vday was great! jiayous.

JAIN ; haha your tag so formal. "Hi Sophia" =x i miss talking t you jainjain.

CoMC ; lol go where? sentosa ah. lol come lor.. bring ur gf come also la. then all tan together. but i dont rmb seeing gw being tanned de =x

wanna be your supergirl.

2006-02-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. had alot of work t do this week. more t come in the next two weeks ;(
theres two quizzes next week too. arghh.
went t watch jarhead tday. not as nice as i expected leh, not much action. haha. then i pierced my ear. and i went t so many places t shop, hoping t buy smth, but i ended up going home empty-handed! this is so bad. i hate it when things like this happen. lol.
hmmm. today many ppl were in town. saw junxian and sam and esther. and yingjie. so many! haha i'm going mad.

//

nikonll ; ya lor so power then make me shiver in coldness.. haha!

junnxian ; yo erzi. haha your mohawk disappearing liao laa go trim ur hair =p nice seeing you tday. btw now already going t valentines day liao you still wish me happy cny sia. LOL

JAIN ; hi dearrrrr!! miss you so muchhhh! ;D

qu|kZ ; haha you had better! i'm missing you loads too! sentosa soon pls~ hehehe

Gerr ; lol sad t say, my angbaos are big but nowhere near fat.. inside the money quite little =x

Hyo ; hello, happy cny and happy vday too. haha. err ok updated liao

words unspoken.

2006-02-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

Never Had A Dream Come True - S Club 7

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

-I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you-

Somewhere in my memory
I've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

-chorus-

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
Yes you will, say you will, you know you will
Oh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forget
There's no use looking back or wondering
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

-chorus-

no song describes my current thoughts and feelings better than this. every word in the song is what i want you to know. i know you dont read my blog, but still. just in case you do, i speak to you thru this song. we both need a lil more time, but the feeling stays.

had a crappy nightmare last night. fuck that. okay gotta put my angbao money into the bank tmr.

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junxiann ; lol thats good. keep the money well ok dont anyhow spend =x

Gerr ; happy cny t you too! hope your angbaos were all fat and plenty :p

nikonll ; lol thanks for listening and tryin t cheer me up with ur lame jokes and funny videos.. ;)

qu|kZ ; hehe. yaa you're asleep when i'm awake and i'm asleep when you're awake. hahaha. i miss you sweetie.

lye ; thanks babe.. yup i'm feeling better though sometimes it still gets t me. but i'll be fine. hehe.. do crazy things.? sure man.. after my exams =x hey. i want you and von t be happy alright? :)

lt ; lol this week's short but very busy! super duper chao ji wudi reach peak to the max busy man. you nv tell jokes in ur blog but the way you blog is damn funny! v cute la. haha. stay this way ok! :D

always my love.

2006-01-29T00:14:00.000+08:00

happy cny to all. :)
i still dont feel like blogging. but for the sake of all the sweethearts who tagged me and showered me with concern, i've come to say that i'm feeling better.
not feeling great though, i'm still in a state of confusion. theres a mixture of emotions in me now i need time to sort out my thoughts and feelings. and for the other things i'm thinking about.. only time will tell.

theres so much i wish you knew, so much i wish to know.. but suddenly i dont have much to say to you.. not now..
i really cant bring myself to say those words.. neither can i stand hearing them. lets keep things at their current state and see where fate brings us to.. shall we?

//

qu|kZ ; thanks for all you've done for me.. wouldnt know where i'd be now if you werent here :)

nikonll ; i'll do my best.. but no promises. still tryin to pick myself up..

CoMC ; its alright.. i hafnt talked to you for so long man. miss ya. your ears are gonna be in for a hard time -winks.

junxiann ; erzi. thanks for ur efforts too.. always tryin to cheer me up on msn. mommy loves you :)

liting ; i hope you get well soon! and take care of yourself man.. i doubt the new year goodies will cheer me up.. food doesnt have that effect on me.. lol. i'm feeling better.. but i still think 2006 is fked up. heh.

hopes dashed, dreams shattered.

2006-01-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

fuck 2006.
i'm not in the mood t explain anything.
i just feel jaded. i need t be alone, yet i want someone t be here with me.

i'm setting you free.. i hope this is the best for you..
if you decide t come back one day, i'll be here waiting..

//

qu|kZ ; big sigh. ;(

junnxiann ; i'm feeling really fucked up now..

dellyybellyy ; i'm not fine. i think my entries are boring. and they'll start t get worse. emo? thats me.

smile again.

2006-01-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

finally the sun's out. but i still cant go for my tan cos of the neverending readings. ;(
went out nd got my cny clothes ytd. met victoria at billy bombers. lols took her quite long t realise i was there too. haha.
i'm not really in the mood t blog so i'm gonna stop here.

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qu|kZ ; heh. the sun's out now, but i'm not sure if it could brighten up my day.

jx ; i'll try. erzi you take care too yea? talk t ya soon :)

Gerr ; hehe. thanks darling. i hope it works. lol..

dellyybellyy ; alrights your link's been added. lol why keep changing blog adds?

rainy weather.

2006-01-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

the weather's been wet nd cold these days. the sky's dark nd grey, just like my world. its raining nonstop. good t sleep in, but somehow i just cant get any sleep.
there isnt much for me t update.. been doing readings this weekend. nd i'm not done with them yet -.-
nd i thought sem 2 would be better than sem 1.

on a lighter note, reading liting's blog makes me feel like buying a pair of birkenstock slip-ons man. but i shld not spend unnecessarily!! since i spent a bomb during the dec hols.
-frowns.

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liting ; omg you changed ur classes so many times! ahha i wonte have the energy t keep changing nd changing man. btw hope you'r feeling better.. everything'll be okay! smile! :)

nikonll ; hey. :) i'll try ya? though i have a feeling i'm gonna lose myself v soon.