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; what lies beneath.

i had two weird dreams yesterday. one during my nap, the other at night. and its such dreams that i hate. dreams that disrupt my life; dreams that remind me of what i'm trying so hard t hide and forget.

everyone sees me as a person smiling always, but who knows who i really am under this facade? who knows how i really feel?

you. you say no one understands you; that no one can even imagine how its like t go through the pain and hurt you went through. but you never did let anyone understand. you didnt give anyone a chance t try t understand, did you?
you say your family doesnt love you. from what i see, they do. at the very least, i can tell that your mom loves you dearly. but you refuse t acknowledge it. you keep twisting her kind intentions into something else.

you do not have the right t grumble, because everything you do you only think for yourself! how do you want people t understand you if you dont let them? we can only see as much as what others want us t see. is there a time you put yourself into their shoes and think how they feel?

you insist that your views are right. i repeat one last time: I WASNT OUT T CHANGE YOU. believe it or not, its the truth. but you didnt give me a chance t explain, did you? no one likes being accused of something he didnt do, so what made you think that i enjoyed that, huh? you think you've tried t see things from my point of view, but the fact is you didnt. theres no point denying, you know it very well.

i know you wont read these, and even if you do, as usual you wouldnt care. but i have t let everything out, so i dont care either. but i know if you continue t live in your own world, you're on the right path t self-destruction.

>>

IZE ; no worries, i know ;)

Hyo ; nope that wasnt me. i hafnt stepped into tampines for damn long. in fact i dont go there since its so damn far away.

JAIN ; hehe thanks. you're leaving for hk soon. ;( meet up after you're back alrights? i'll miss ya. enjoyy!

& for you, i would.
Thursday, May 04, 2006


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